Mother's day..

Mother...



at 25 years old I started to be a mother..and having two little children now seems a very big responsibility to be carried out.



When I was doing my master degree, I saw my friend who was strunggling to manage her time between revising for an examination and taking care her little children.



I have no idea how difficult it was.



and now I know..



Hanya kepada-Nya la aku memohon pertolongan..hanya kepadaNya..memang hanya kepadaNya...



Seperti nasihat seorang lecturer seblm saya membuat PhD" buatla solat hajat byk2..memang kita tak mampu tanpa pertolonganNya"

Alhamdulillah...segala2 nya dgn pertolongan Allah s.w.t.




Wajah2 yg tercinta -->

:) Senyum seindah suria..penyejuk hati ibu...wajah2 yg tercinta di Malaysia akan kutatapi jua akhir minggu ini....rindunyer........

Anak ayah nie..

From birth until now, I always look at my daughter face. I think her face follows my husband's face. Her eyes, nose and mouth are really similar with my husband...

'Anak ayah nie'..he..he..he..

Semoga menjadi anak solehah ye...

All about Nadhirah...

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Adik dah pandai duduk..:)

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Adik dan abang, teman sepermainan..

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Adik, senyum dik...tapi adik lebih berminat gan kamera

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Ish..ish..ish

Geramnyer gan kamera nie

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Usaha tangga kejayaan..adik melangkah..silap..merangkak utk mendptkan kamera...

Akhirnya, adik dpt jugak..tapi gambar tak upload sbb blur..dekat sgt....

Itulah Nadhirah...ajjah..attah...uppah...attah...sibuk bercakap skrang..:)

Sehari bersama Ikram

What is your name?
Ikram!
How old are you?
Three years old..
Where do you live?
I live at 'odge' Auckland!
Siri jawapan Ikram kalau ditanya soalan2 tersebut...
Lagu kegemaran Ikram ?
My mother..who next my mother..who next my mother..and then my father....
satu lagi..
Bismillah..Alhamdulillah....
satu lagi
alif diatas aa, ba di atas aa, ta diatas aa...semua bunyi aaa


Pukul satu tghhari..
Sekarang Ikram sudah bersiap sedia gi 'school'..

Saya dah sampai dah...seronoknye!!!

Pusing kanan

Pusing kiri

Emm..mcm menarik pulak kat sana
Main air dulu la...

Pas tuh..main pasir pulak...Mane tak seronok gi 'school' nie

Pukul 4.00 ptg...bila sampai, Ikram dah duduk dalam..tgh kusyuk main lego

Buat 'house' ke?
Jom balik..pakai sandle...jln dlm 15-20 minit..
dah sampai dah umah...

Apalagi ...sambung main la..kali nie buat 'train' atau 'bus'..

Nie apa nie? 'Train'.....panjangnyer....

Nak main sama? Jom la....

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Inilah post mengenai 'sehari bersama Ikram'

Dikala sibuk2 tahap maksima nie, sempat lagi mencelah tulis blog..release tension......

Lps nie sehari bersama Nadhirah pulak :)

Adik (Ikram's sister)

Adik...

She starts to eat now..

Adik..

love playing with her brother, Ikram

Adik..

I love u so much...

When I was pregnant,

you give me a lot of strength,

I become so ambitious in doing my PhD.

And now,

although I have more responsibility,

as long as you're there,

I still can move on...

with different approach, different time mangement and different situation...

Hopefully, adik, I can still give you the best that I can as a mother.

Love

I like to watch a cerekarama with title 'Kalam Cinta Rabiah'. My husband downloaded the cerekarama so I can watch it in NZ..ye haa....thanks cunyu..

and I love this quote:

A magnificent love makes a magnificent human being –Kalam Cinta Rabiah

All about love:

4/2/2007 was my husband birthday..I will create a special post about him..

9/2/2007 -Nadhirah now is 5 months old...

Ikram? Always asks "What's that!!!????"..Jenuh gak nak jawab...

and also my family in m'sia..rindunyer...

Me? In the middle of analysing, writing, improving,updating..more and more verbs with ing..

Hopefully the love I get will make me a magnificient woman...:)

cai yo cai yo..

New year's Resolution: 2008

Yesterday, I went to a course, New year's resolution regarding your thesis:2008 and there was a question:
Rate your thesis productivity for the year 2007 on a scale 1-7...
My answer is: unable to answer..he..he..but hopefully this year, 2008, the rate is 7, very productive.

A list of things to do this year:

Thesis (before March, hopefully)
-complete a fully developed research proposal: a schedule of research, an outline of the thesis stucture and a statement of the recources required to complete the research but do I achive the provisional goals?

-make my own programming to analyse the data using Matlab (berangan dulu la) because at the moment I've been using other researher's programme.

English
- Go to ELSAC next week to join my group in improving English. My group has set some dates so that we can go to ELSAC as a group. I have been to ELSAC individually but I think to be in the group is better because I can get more motivated.

Socialize in the group
- Try to get involve with the group's activities. I really have to enhance my communication skills in English (picture below is the group).

Family

Hopefully I can manage my time wisely. I want to be a good mother, a good wife and a good daughter. Always pray to be ' Ibu, Isteri dan Anak solelah'.
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Therefore I must work smart to achive all my goals..
Doa2 kan la provisional year nie lepas...:)
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Some of my pictures with my children while waiting for a train.

Satu Muharram detik permulaa..permulaan thn Islam...

Hijrah...Perpindahan nabi dan umat Islam..
dr kota Mekah ke Kota Madinah..
Atas keyakinan dan iman yg teguh...

Keep singging this song during Maal Hijrah...and a compulsory song for a nasyid competition during my primary school (maleh nak citer..sbb kalah).

1429 ..New year should come with a new resolution...
But..so many things to do and I feel like to 'demam' today. Headache with stars around me..
not 'winkel winkle litel star' like Ikram always sing..

So here I am, end up with writing this blog..
btw ema and zaidah are moving today, until this moment still thinking to 'jenguk' or not.
may be wait until the stars around me dissapear..

So today I would like to write about my mum who her birthday is on the 3rd January.

MuM,
engkaulah ratu hatiku....
Who is my mum?
A good Mother, of course, who give me her truly love and I can always feel it in the deep of my heart. This love make me stronger and confidence to face any difficulties in my life...
Who is my mum?
A good teaher, of course, who teach me how to survive in this temporary life.. She sometimes said to me "use your common sense". yes, not all things should be told how to do...especially during cooking.." Mak, bawang ni nak potong camner..sayur nie dh masak ke belum" he..he..
and during PhD, can I work independently?
My mother was also a teacher in her real life..taught science and BM. In one night before PMR, my mum asked me some science questions that should be answered orally. It was really helpful, thanks mum.
Who is my mum?
A good writer, of course, a teacher must be good in writing especially to write the teaching plan. My mum really has this skill, may be inheritanced from my grandfather who was also a teacher. My grandfather had won a considolation prize for short stories competition organized by dewan bahasa dan pustaka (DBP). My mum told me to write a short sentence instead of a long long sentence like "Masa itu emas.",the first sentence of my mum's essay during MCE. After MCE, my mum also got an offer to write a textbook. Hopefully, I have this skill too. I really need it escpecially for my PhD....May be I have it but I don't realise it ( nak sejukkan hati..he..he..)
Who is my mum?
A mum who can speak and write in English, of course, because my mum got her education in an English school. Then further her studies in 'Maktab perguruan' where she met my father..he..he..(my father was also a teacher, therefore, I was born to be a teacher!!).
Hopefully, my english is good too..or must good.

All in all, mum, you are the BEST....


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p/s: Faizah, pls print and gave it to Mak..tq.

Ikram's family

Allah says in surah Ar-Rum ayat 21:

Which means: And among His signs is that He created for you wives from among yourselves that you may find peace in them and He has put between you affection and mercy. Verily in that are indeed signs for a people who reflect.

"Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaan-Nya telah diciptakan-Nya untukmu pasangan dari jenismu sendiri supaya kamu mendapat ketenangan hati dan dijadikan-Nya kasih sayang di antara kamu. Sesungguhnya yang demikian itu menjadi tanda-tanda kebesaran-Nya bagi orang-orang yang berfikir"

Alhamdulillah 21/12/2007 genapla empat thn kami mendirikan rumahtangga...

Semuanyer bermula ketika kami sama2 belajar dalam bidang sains komputer (TK), fakulti teknologi dan sains maklumat (FTSM), UKM, batch 1999/2001.

Kini, alhamdulillah, kami dikurniakan sepasang cahaya mata:

Muhammad Ikram Mohammed Reza (3 thn) 10/10/2004: Hospital Sultanah Aminah, JB

Nur Nadhirah Nabihah Mohammed Reza (3 bulan) 5/9/2007: Auckland City Hospital.

Semoga segalanyer diberkati Allah s.w.t...amin..

Wellington..here we come..

Post ini ditulis pada 1 Nov..cuma hari nie cut and paste kat blog..sbb masa tuh suami tgh guna internet...



1 NOV 2007 back from maternity leave… start keje dah…
Keje apa lagik…mengkaji benda2 yg belum dikaji…….2 bln duk umah..2 bln la tak tgk research..
Tapi supervisor kata ada buruk dan baiknyer sbnrnyer..
Sbb nanti bila balik lps cuti bersalin, I will look again my research in a new prespective..
Emm.betulla apa dia ckp.kalau sblm nie ada benda yg blur…skrang nie dh nampak sikit..maklumla kat otak dah ada neuron yg terbentuk…lps 2 bln baru come out result nye iaitu understanding..iye la tuh..byk oo bende kena buat…nak kena validate my proposed technique nie..harap2 ok..tapi kalau tak ok pun..bak kata supervisor lagik..at least research saya nie menunjukkan teknik tak boleh guna tuk bidang nie (aluminium). Satu penemuan jugak tuh..he..he…he…
Thn dpn rancang nak balik..bukan apa..nak gi mengurut.nak sengkak..skrang nie pun rasa belum100% cergas..Moga2 ada la duit lebih sikit..ye la ..kos bersalin dah 3 ribu lebih…NZD tuh…..nie skrang desperate nak carik conference kat Malaysia…at least tambang saya KPT cover…emm passport Nadhirah harap2 tak lama sgt nak siap..
Minggu nie ingat nak gi Wellington:High comm. Msia..sbb akhir Nov ada appoint ment nak cucuk BCG utk Nadihrah, Kena cucuk sblm 12 weeks..kalau tak lagi sakit dia…mid wife la yg beritahu ni…hanya 19/11 jek yg paling terdkat yg kosong utk cucuk BCG kat klinik tuh…nak tak nak kena gi gak minggu nie
Emm..Ikram dah gi nusery..so masa kat opis pun byk sikit la drpd dulu…..kalau dulu dpt pc yg rasa2 nyer paling tak power..tapi skrang nie…dpt pc yg no 4 power kat centre tuh (manager tu la yg kabo)…tempat yg baru pun ada divider..kira privacy sikitla..okayla tuh..better drpd sblm bersalin dulu…..ye la..sbbnyer dulu centre tuh ingat research saya nie nothing to contribute to the centre..tapi bila director kata aku mungkin masuk dlm projek diorang, barula dia bagi pc gan tempat duduk sedap sikit.,,iyela..sbbnyer.. tempat tuh rupa2nyer diorang sewa dprd UoA….center kena carik untung sendiri….duit sendiri,
Okayla..anak pun dh nangis…report pun tak siap lagik..nak sidai kain sikit…
Akhir kata..Cai yo…cai yo…….semangat ..semangat….:)

The figure below shows a schematic view of a cell. A cell that is used for producing aluminium (the blue one in the figure). The concept is like elektrolysis..anode and cathode..mcm kita belajar chemistry dulu..disebabkan chemistry nie my favourite subject..dulu nyaris2 amik farmasi..jadik kira okayla kaji benda cell nie...

First day at Early Childhood Centre

Yesterday, I sent Ikram to an early childhood centre. When we arrived, Ikram was very happy. He ran straight to the playground. He looked very confident. After 10 minutes, I left Ikram and went to Kate Edgar to print a letter. The letter was for Unit latihan UKM. As now we have 2 children, I asked for an increasing in family allowance. Before I left Ikram, as usual I said to him, “Mama pergi kerja ye. Nanti mama dtg balik”. Ikram seem ok and said “Bye..”


Then, when I was at student commons, printing the letter, Linda from the early childhood center had called me and said that Ikram was crying. From the handphone, I can hear Ikram’s voice “ Nak mak…Nak mak”..So I said to Linda that I will come in 5 minutes.

Em…when I arrived, a staff there was holding Ikram. He was very upset…emm..It reminds me back about the same situation when I sent Ikram to a nursery in Malaysia. In Malaysia, it took me quite a long time to settle him down until one day I decided to be in the nursery for about an hour and more…

All I know that we cannot leave our children just like that. We cannot assume that ‘lama-lama okayla tuh’. We as his parents must comfort him first. Make friends with the staffs. So the child began to understand that this place is safe and theire parent dosent leave him for ever. They will come again to take me home. Some times the child was crying because they think we will leave him there for a long, long time. Try to do what our children is doing at the nusery. Like me, I asked Ikram to eat his sandwich. At fisrt, he refused to eat. Then when I took one and ate, he seems more confident and ate the sandwich with me.

Similarly in Malaysia, when Ikram didn’t want to sleep at the nusery, I put my head down besides his pillow and I could see from his eyes that there was a relief inside him. They were the same eyes that I saw during eating sanwinches at the centre here. Well, let we see whether Ikram is still upset at the centre tomorrow..Hopefully not…please not….please…………………..

-->Some of Ikram's pictures but not at the center...

Ikram with his father
During hari raya, 1 Syawal
Ikram with his sister, Nadhirah...

Ikram..my beloved son.....:)

More about giving birth..All about natural

So many new things I've learnt from giving birth here, in Auckland.All about natural.



Firstly,when giving birth, I said to the midwifes, " I think I want to push now"..
Then the mid wife said "If u want to push, push.." wow..it's so different during Ikram..During Ikram, the midwife guided me when to push and how to do it. In here, I have to decide when to push and how to do it.



Secondly, after giving birth, I can decide whether to get an injection to get the placenta out or just let the placenta out naturally. In Malaysia, I didnt get any option. Just used the injection to let the placenta out. So, after discussing with my midwife, I choosed to let the placenta out naturally. After Nadhirah was born, the midwife said " when u feel like to push after this, you just push. It will let the placenta out"...Well, it is not as easy as I thought before...It took a long time for me to feel like to push...At one time, I felt like to ask the midwife to just give me the injection to let the placenta out. Because I was so weak at that moment. I lost about 400 ml of blood. The midwife even tried to pull it out, but the placenta was still there...Finally, I felt like to push and placenta was come out..waa..what a relief...



Thirdly, after giving birth, the midwifes put the baby without any clothes on me. They want the baby skin touch my skin. The reason doing that is the mother's body temperature will up to a suitable degree to heat the baby. MasyaAllah...betapa besarnya kurniaan Allah.. The baby will feel warm and comfortable.



Fourthly, after the Nadhirah was born, they just wiped her lightly and put her on me. They didn't wash her with water. Then I know that the liquid that covering the baby when she was in the womb, will heat her after she was born. So, better she take a bath only after 4-6 hours from the delivering time. Just to give her time to get use with her new environment.



Lastly, the midwifes didn't suck (sedut) liquid from the baby. At first, I didn't know about that until I've asked my midwife. It is because when at home, Nadhirah quite often vomiting and 'bersin'. Then I told the midwife that I think Nadhirah got a cold. The midwife said that it was a good sign. It showed that she wanted the liquid out of her body naturally. That has explained why her vomitting contained a lot of "lendir"...to get the liquid out from her.




My midwife, Ann, was checking Nadihrah during her visit.



Well, let all go naturally..........



:)

Hari nie dan semlm...

Hari nie hari raya..

Ikram's father with bebudak Auckland
Ikram and his mother at Zaidah and Ema's house.

Yesterday, was still Ramadhan..

Yesterday, I tried to make puding roti..

I think this is the fourth time..and mcm tak jadik jek....

I think I would like to give some of the puding to our neighbours (room 210,310) but "seganla" because the taste and the look of the puding is not like what I've been expected.

em..tak jadik lagi..bila la nak jadik.....:(



Then I got sms from ema told tomorrow is 'raya'...

I got sms from Akmal that tomorrow will be an open house at Ema and Zaidah's house...at that time I didn't know whether to go or not, depend on many things.myself,mybaby.I am still in confinement....still thinking



At last, today we have been to their house (see pictures above) and Ikram as usual keep asking about cokelat....."Nak cokelat.....nak cokelat".......


ops...tak call mak lagi.
got to go....

Today is Hari Raya

Hari raya.....
Tlg mak masak samapi 1-2 pagi..
Masak apa ek..
Masak ayam masak merah atau rendang, kuah kacang, sayur lodeh, nasi himpit, rendang daging: masak 1-2 hari awal...
Masak kuantiti yg byk sbb nak bagi jiran dan sedara mara.
Pastu bila jiran gan sedara mara bagi pulak, fuh penuh satu meja oooo....
Ayam ada 2-3 jenis masakan:kicap, rendang,masak merah, sayur lodeh 2-3 versi: cair, pekat, sedap..,rendang:kering, basah, ketupat, nasi himpit, ketupat pulut...fuh..
Makan 2-3 round...

emmm..baru nak layan mood raya...
sambung lagi nanti sbb nak layan anak pulak..
:)
Maaf zahir batin

Ikram's birthday

10/10/2004, today is Ikram's birthday....Happy birthday to you....

Now he is three years old..Now he is a brother..

I've started to think about him...Thinking about his feeling

Sometimes we have to be in his position, try to think like him...

Why does he cry...why does he act like that....

may be he wants to tell me "Mama, I want your attention, but I dont know how to tell you", "Mama, I'm very tired,but I still want to play", "Mama,I'm hungry, but I dont want to eat that", "Mama, I want to past urine, but I dont want to go to the toilet".......

Well, a lot more to learn about how to handle a three years old child...

I've found some pictures from my sister's friendster.

Mengimbau kenangan lalu.....

Ikram at my brother's house, Putrajaya
Ikram with my sister, Faizah
Ikram was playing with 'bantal Incredible'
Ikram was at our house at Tmn Tenaga
Ikram and his mother were at a research's room at UKM (kacau kwn2 yg ada)

Ikram was at his stroller with a green teddy bear (above)

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Raya nak dekat dah...

Mak...............nak balik kg..raya.....:(

Nak makan ketupat, sayur lodeh, rendang mak buat, ayam, biskut gulung......

tapi boleh ke makan time pantang belum habis nie.....

Dulu masa Ikram, seminggu lps 1 Syawal, mak masak lagi lauk raya sbb time tuh baru abis pantang.....Sayang mak................

:)