aduh...aku terkena lagi...

Ingat Allah byk2....
Sabar...
Berubah ke arah kebaikan...
Berjuang menjadi muslimah cemerlang...
Yakin boleh....

Aku tak boleh jadi org lain ..tapi aku perlu berubah utk mendpt keredhaan Allah..

PhDku dan Anak-Anakku

Tik tok tik tok…emmm the time run very fast..
I’m now entering my third year of my PhD in a couple of months..
How your progress?
A bit late of my scheduled tasks plus much more additional tasks must be carried on..
This new semester of 2009, I will be a marker for two subjects. I’m not an expert for these subjects so it’s not easy for me.
My group in the science building wants to build a commercial software. I will part of it..More meeting to attend and more data analysis and testing should be done. But all of these tasks are ok with me as my participation in the project might help to enhance the quality of my research. And also it will give me valuable experience in software development.
Papers?
I’ve been struggling to finish the writing of two papers. One for a IEEE conference in NZ and one is for a journal. The paper for the IEEE conference is almost finish but the journal paper, need a lot of changes..
I have two bad experiences about journal submission during my master. My papers were rejected with ‘unpleasant comments’….So for this one, which is for my PhD, I’ve to make sure that the paper is up to the standard of the journal..


How about my family?
‘Mencabar”..the only word that can describe my situation now..
I do respect with Phd students who have many little children and gain success in their PhD. They remained calm, strong and yet more productive. They even can write s few journal articles…
Bagaimana dgn anak-anaku
Anakku Ikram,
A big boy now..
Sometimes he said “it’s not funny Ikram”..He repeated what his teachers had said to him. I know why the teachers said like that. It is because Ikram were doing something that he thinks funny but actually annoying other people. This situation usually happens when Ikram is sleepy or tired. He will be a bit lost of control…The solution: put him on a bed..
Anakku Nadhirah…
Adek like to explore. She even climbs tables to get what she wants like pencils and camera. If she plays with Ikram, the situation in the house will be similar to a childhood center. The generated noise is like comes from many children…

Kedua2 anakku suka makan kek..
Baru2 nie cuba resipi blueberry muffin..
Suka rasanya sampaikan bila nampak ada lagi muffin kat bekal Ikram masa amik dia, rasa suka sgt..Sbb tak puas makan lagi..
Kali kedua buat, kurang sikit rasa sbb terkurang gula…sbb ganti brown sugar dgn white sugar (white sugar abis pulak).jadi terkurang manis …pas tu terlupa letak cinnamon dan terlebih tepung kat crumble muffin tuh…..takper lain kali mesti cuba lagi sbb nak rasa mcm yg first time buat…

Kesimpulannya, buat Phd + membesarkan anak2 = teruji kesabaran + kesuntukan masa

Dah ada Phd + Anak2 yg cemerlang = kepuasan + kesyukuran

Gambar muffin yg sedap tapi teritam sikit..

Adik kat Cornwall park

Adik tgk2 luar gan abg Ikram

Di tingkap ini tempat yg disukai Ikram dan Adik

Sbb kat tingkap nie nampak laut dan Sky city:

Syukur di atas segala nikmatNya..

Motivasi pagi

Kalau dah demam, memangla tak bersemangat nak buat keje...
Tapi kalau tak demam pun, semangat pun kurang jugak..
Jadi hari ni, w/pun demam mcm dah kurang tapi pening2 kepala tuh ada, saya still nak mencari semangat yang hilang...Tapi hari nie still dok rumah so kalau pening senang nak tido..
Lagipun kerja byk yg nak kena buat..writing, data analysis, presentation...
Kalau boleh nak sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit..tak nakla dah sampai waktu, baru nak prepare...tension nanti...
Mcm presentation, hari Isnin nie supervisor nak buat dry run..tak prepare lagi tuh..
Minggu dpn memang busy. Isnin, Selasa dan Rabu ada meeting. Maklumla skrang nie saya dah masuk 2 group. satu contol group kat light metal dan satu lagi control group under supervisor. So bila dua2 buat meeting, kenala join...
So sekarang nie nak naikan semangat dgn motivasi...

Motivasi diri bermula dgn diri sendiri...cuma nak kena cari ilmu bagaimana motivasi itu lebih berjaya..salah satu artikel yg saya jumpa dr satu website..Bagus utk saya yg pagi2 baca news dan mengantuk sokmo....


7 Perkara Yang Membuat Anda Bermotivasi Di Waktu Pagi
May 19, 2008 By Shukri Abdullah



Perkara terbaik yang Anda patut lakukan di waktu pagi, adalah :
1. Bersyukur, bersyukur, bersyukur.Bersyukurlah sebab Anda masih diberi peluang untuk meneruskan hidup, Anda masih ada kesempatan untuk melakukan yang terbaik hari ini, lebih baik dari yang kelmarin.
2. Tekad Bermotivasi.Pasang niat dalam hati yang Anda mahu jadi bersemangat sepenuhnya. Ambil beberapa artikel-artikel motivasi pendek dan baca dalam seminit dua.
Di waktu awal pagi, jangan buka email, baca newspaper, baca gosip-gosip mahupun join sesi mengumpat bersama kawan-kawan. Sebab, ia menerbitkan energi negatif lalu menghalang Anda dari bermotivasi sepanjang hari.
3. Dekatkan Diri Dengan Sesi Motivasi.Ikuti sesi-sesi motivasi di media, misalnya Motivasi Pagi di TV3 dan sesi motivasi Dr Izzy di Hot FM. Luangkan masa 3-5 minit memberi motivasi pada diri sendiri melalui sesi-sesi motivasi pendek ni.
Motivasi harus dijaga, sebab kalau tak di jaga Anda ia mudah turun. Kesannya, Anda jadi tak bersemangat, lemah longlai dan lemas.
4. Dalam Apa Jua Yang Anda Buat, Mulakan Dengan Bismillah.Bila Anda start punch card nak masuk kerja, baca Bismillah, moga Anda dijauhkan dari bisikan syaitan yang membuat Anda lalai, mengantuk, macam tak cukup ‘cas betri’ saja.
Andai kata Anda seorang pelajar, start nak masuk kelas, duduk di kerusi Anda dan start nak bukak buku, mulakan semuanya dengan Bismillah. Moga apa jua yang Anda lakukan mendapat keberkatan.
Masuk aje kelas, pasang niat Anda mahu menuntut ilmu. Bila istiqamah melakukannya, Anda punya peluang cerah untuk menjadi cemerlang!
5. Set Target Kemajuan Diri SendiriIni juga kurang dititikberatkan. Bila dah keluar rumah sama ada ke kelas atau ke tempat kerja, kita tak tahu apa yang kita nak capai hari tu. Betul tak?
Kita hanya nak sampai di sana, bekerja (atau menghadiri kelas) lepas tu nanti petang balik rumah, berehat, makan, minum, pastu tidur. Esok pagi, bangun dan perkara sama berulang lagi.
Hidup Anda bagai dalam 1 bulatan, situ-situ saja.
Mulai hari ini, ubah sikap Anda. Set target apa yang Anda mahu capai, lagi best setkan untuk setiap hari.
Andai Anda seorang pelajar, set target berapa bab yang Anda nak ulangkaji, berapa buah buku yang Anda nak baca dalam minggu ni, berapa soklan Anda nak tanya dengan lecturer Anda nanti.
Andai Anda seorang usahawan, set target berapa jualan yang Anda nak capai hari ini dan berapa keuntungan yang Anda nak dapat hasil dari bisnes Anda. Set juga apa yang Anda nak pelajari hari ni dalam bidang bisnes Anda.
Andai Anda seorang pekerja, set berapa tugas yang Anda nak siapkan dan set limit masa untuk Anda menyiapkan segalanya. Kecekapan seorang pekerja di nilai dari kepantasan, ketepatan dan kekemasan.
6. Lihat Warna CerahWarna boleh mempengaruhi mood. Warna cerah membuat kita jadi energetik, ceria dan penuh dengan idea.
Setiap hari, lihat warna-warna yang cerah seperti kuning, merah, biru dan hijau. Cara ni saya dah test sendiri, berkesan sungguh!
Dekatkan diri dengan benda-benda berwarna cerah sebab ia mampu merubah mood Anda menjadi positif.
7. Penuhkan Hati Dengan KemaafanLepaskan segala yang dulu-dulu. Maafkan orang diwaktu pagi, maafkan kesalahan semuanya dari dulu sampai sekarang.
Lepaskan dendam, rasa tak puas hati, geram, sakit hati dan yang sewaktu dengannya.
Andai emosi-emosi negatif ni bersarang di hati (walaupun sedikit) ia menghalang motivasi. Kesannya, Anda jadi orang yang tak bersemangat langsung.
Lebih teruk, Anda jadi orang yang berfikiran negatif, hanya nampak yang negatif dalam diri setiap orang, setiap situasi dan setiap benda.
Anda mesti berubah untuk kemajuan diri.
Berani Berubah Untuk Kecemerlangan Hidup!
diambil drpd:
http://www.imotivasi.com/7-perkara-yang-membuat-anda-bermotivasi-di-waktu-pagi/#comment-4531

Oh ya, hari ni besday suami tercinta...dah masuk 30 dah dia....dan dah 5 tahun kami bergelar suami isteri...
Alhamdulillah, semoga dia dikurniakan iman yang teguh dan menjadi suami, ayah dan anak yang soleh. Doakanla isterimu berjaya dlm misi PhDnya nie..:)

Akhir kata,
Kita dikurniakan Akal oleh Allah utk berfikir dan bertindak..Jadi gunakanla sebaik2nya..
Dan saya pernah terbaca seorang prof yg masuk Islam..Awalnya, apabila dia membaca Al-quran, timbul pelbagai persoalan..kemudian dia terus membaca dan mendapat jawapanya. Dia berasa sgt kagum bagaimana 'pengarang' Al-quran ini tahu apa yg dipikirkannya ketika itu..
Hayatilah ayat ini:
Tafsiran surah Hud:ayat 14:
Oleh itu, jika mereka (penolong-penolong kamu) tidak dapat melaksanakan permintaan kamu (untuk membuat surah-surah yang sebanding dengan Al-Quran), maka ketahuilah bahawa Al-Quran itu diturunkan hanyalah menurut pengetahuan Allah dan bahawa tidak ada tuhan yang berhak disembah melainkan Allah. Setelah (terbukti hakikat yang demikian) maka adakah kamu mengakui Islam dan menurut aturannya? (14)


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Saya pula suatu ketika berpikir selepas sembahyang tentang keadaan diri..Terpikir bagaimana org lain berusaha membantu rakyat Gaza...Terpikir bagaimana iman mereka yg membantu ini...Terpikir bagaimana pula iman aku....terpikir bagaimana cara terbaik meningkatkan imanku skrang...Allah maha besar...Persoalan yg timbul ini aku temuinya jawapannya tidak lama selepas itu apabila membaca Al-Quran pada ayat ini :
Surah Al-Isra ayat 78-79
Dirikanlah olehmu sembahyang ketika gelincir matahari hingga waktu gelap malam, dan (dirikanlah) sembahyang Subuh sesungguhnya sembahyang Subuh itu adalah disaksikan (keistimewaannya). (78) Dan bangunlah pada sebahagian dari waktu malam serta kerjakanlah sembahyang tahajud padanya, sebagai sembahyang tambahan bagimu; semoga Tuhanmu membangkit dan menempatkanmu pada hari akhirat di tempat yang terpuji. (79)
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Ayat ini mengingatkan aku yang lupa. Sama2 la kita menempatkan diri kita ditempat yg terpuji dgn solat tahajud. Ada juga terbaca suatu artikel nie dimana apabila dikaji org yg solat tahajud selama 3 bulan, imunisasi badanya bertambah (sorry, rujukannya saya tak tahu).
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Sekarang saya nak cuba tido awal, supaya boleh bgn pagi..Tapi biasala kalau dah beranak kecik nie, tido yg lena itu hanya dlm mimpi jek...he..he..Kalau dah mengantuk sgt pagi tu, kadang2 cuba juga utk mandi dulu..Sbb kalau mandi sblm Subuh sebenarnya tak sejuk-->Tips ini saya dpt drpd seorang kawan (dia ada asma). Saya dah cuba tapi sekali dua jek..memang betul tak terasa sejuk sampai mengigil tuh...Di sini atau di Malaysia..Kalau mandi pun tak sejuk, apalagi amik wuduk..Tapi diri ini sering jek lupa.....

Semoga diri ini akan lebih beringat...amin....

Dilema bermain futsal...

Soalan saya kepada seorang blogger yg juga seorang Dr:

(http://www.blogdokter.net/2007/09/04/15-langkah-menurunkan-berat-badan/comment-page-2/)

Hi,
Terima kasih atas informasi yg sgt bagus…
Saya juga sedang berusaha menjaga kesihatan dan salah satu cara yg saya buat sekarang ialah bermain futsal dengan teman-teman.
Namun saya runsing sbb saya sudah mempunyai dua orang anak dan saya takut jika saya menendang bola dengan kuat ketika bermain futsal akan menganggu peranakan (kedudukan rahim) saya..
Adakah benar yg wanita yg pernah melahirkan anak tidak sesuai bermain aktiviti lasak seperti ini?

Jawapan Dr berkenaan:

@Ifar : Tidak apa apa, asal disesuaikan dengan kemampuan. Saat menendang bola, otot perut ikut konstraksi dan diharapkan otot perut menjadi lebih kuat. Btw, saya juga sedang asyik bermain futsal.

Tambahan maklumat drpd website lain:

http://www.bcsoccer.net/bcsa/PLAYERS/SoccerScience/tabid/114/articleType/ArticleView/articleId/57/Core-ABS.aspx

If you watch a player effortlessly strike a ball and it takes off like a rocket it is presumed the strength of his leg has produced this. In fact he has created this power from the core (abdominal, back muscles, pelvic floor and diaphragm) and pelvic region.

What is the pelvic floor?

http://www.everybody.co.nz/page-5379ba51-d42c-4c2f-b8c9-6af7cbde7e25.aspx

The pelvic floor is the layer of muscle that stretches from your pubic bone in the front to your tail bone at the back, forming the floor of the pelvis. It is the main support structure for the pelvic organs (bladder, uterus, bowel).

Kesimpulan yg saya buat:

Jadi, pada pendapat sayala, jika kita bermain bola, otot disekitar perut dan pelvic mungkin menjadi kuat. Oleh itu, semakin kuatla sokongan terhadap organ2 yang berada dikawasan pelvic termasukla uterus (rahim/peranakan). Saya rasa ini berbeza dgn mengangkat benda berat secara berterusan kerana kita meletakkan beban yg tidak sesuai kepada otot pelvic dan menjadikan ia lemah. Namun, dlm futsal, bola yg disepak merupakan: It is an integrative centre that produces and controls forces and coordinates movement of the upper and lower body (sumber: link bcsoccer). Jadi kita menyepak bola mengikut kekuatan otot kita..Jadi semakin lama bermain, semakin kuat otot kita disebabkan 'konstraksi' pada otot tersebut....Jadi semakin kuatla sokongan pada uterus...

Jadi boleh terus main futsal la kut...eemmm....

Teman2 se'futsal'...

Research, Futsal dan Krismas...

Phd....


Bicara yg dah ada phd:


"Buat PhD nie takde break...w/pun cuti, tapi pikiran still pikir pasal PhD.Dah antar tesis , dah viva barula cuti yg sebenar2nya"
"In doing PhD, you will have more down moments. It's a very common situation for PhD students"


Ini pulak pelajar yg dah writing stage:




"Dah nak abis dah...tapi data tak ok sgt..kena buat eksperimen balik utk dpt data yg ok"




"Something wrong with the model, I have to validate it again"




Me?


Cuba mencutikan diri tapi asyik pikir research..Mane tak pikir sbb menyedari model yg dibina ada kelemahan..Bila pikir balik, bagus juga tahu awal2 drpd terus 'syok sendiri'....


Lebihkan usaha dan berdoa utk ke tangga kejayaan.....Think positive Naja!


Futsal....

Oleh itu, satu cara utk take a break, hari nie gi main futsal..tak pernah2 main futsal..Dulu main bola kat tepi rumah atuk adala...Itu pun lebih kurang 20 thn yg lepas...
Masa main tadi semput! stamina kurang sgt...Bola pun main sepak jek...he..he...
Takper..bersukan utk kesihatan...


Krismas?

It is a huge celebration here……two weeks of holiday. Although I know about this celebration since I was young, but I really don’t think about it….Just knowing that Christmas is about santa claus, north pole, jesus birth and of course Christmas songs…
But since I was here, I began to see in depth this celebration…
Especially when there was a cristmas tree in my son’s nusery and they learned how to sing Christmas songs (boleh tergugat akidah kalau tgk senikata lagu nie)
And in tv, there are a lot of movies (like The Polar Express and Elf)
that want the children to think that if they do believe in santa, then they will feel and see the existence of santa….
So what the chritsmas is really mean…
Definitions of Chirstmas on the Web:
Christmas is an annual holiday that celebrates the birth of Jesus. It refers to both the day commemorating the birth, and also the Christmastide ...en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chirstmas

And who is santa claus?
Santa Claus: the legendary patron saint of children; an imaginary being who is thought to bring presents to children at Christmas wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
Santa Claus, also known as Saint Nicholas, Father Christmas, Kris Kringle, or simply "Santa", is a historical, legendary, and mythical figure in ...en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Santa
Think the two words: imaginary and mythical.

One day, when I went along a bookshop, there is a book with title: Is Jesus a man or God?

I didn't read the book but here are ayat from Al-Quran related to the question:

Translation for surah AT TAUBAH, Verse 30-35:

[30] The Jews call 'Uzair a son of Allah, and the Christians call Al-Masih the son of Allah. That is a saying from their mouth; (in this) they but imitate what the Unbelievers of old used to say. Allah's curse be on them: how they are deluded away from the Truth!
[31] They take their priests and their anchorites to be their lords in derogation of Allah, and (they take as their Lord) Al-Masih, the son of Maryam; yet they were commanded to worship but One God: there is no god but He. Praise and glory to Him: (far is He) from having the partners they associate (with Him).
32] Fain would they extinguish Allah's Light with their mouths, but Allah will not allow but that His Light should be perfected, even though the Unbelievers may detest (it).
[33] It is He Who hath sent His Messenger with Guidance and the Religion of Truth, to proclaim it over all religion, even though the Pagans may detest (it).
[34] O ye who believe! There are indeed many among the priests and anchorites, who in falsehood devour the substance of men and hinder (them) from the Way of Allah. And there are those who bury gold and silver and spend it not in the Way of Allah: announce unto them a most grievous penalty.
[35] On the Day when heat will be produced out of that (wealth) in the fire of Hell, and with it will be branded their foreheads, their flanks, and their backs, "This is the (treasure) which ye buried for yourselves: taste ye, then, the (treasures) ye buried!"



The translation in Malay:


[30] Dan orang-orang Yahudi berkata: Uzair ialah anak Allah dan orang-orang Nasrani berkata: Al-Masih ialah anak Allah. Demikianlah perkataan mereka dengan mulut mereka sendiri, (iaitu) mereka menyamai perkataan orang-orang kafir dahulu; semoga Allah binasakan mereka. Bagaimanakah mereka boleh berpaling dari kebenaran?
[31] Mereka menjadikan pendeta-pendeta dan ahli-ahli agama mereka sebagai pendidik-pendidik selain dari Allah dan juga (mereka mempertuhankan) Al-Masih Ibni Mariam, padahal mereka tidak diperintahkan melainkan untuk menyembah Tuhan Yang Maha Esa; tiada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Dia. Maha Suci Allah dari apa yang mereka sekutukan.
[32] Mereka hendak memadamkan cahaya Allah (agama Islam) dengan mulut mereka, sedang Allah tidak menghendaki melainkan menyempurnakan cahayaNya, sekalipun orang-orang kafir tidak suka (akan yang demikian).
[33] Dialah yang telah mengutus RasulNya (Muhammad) dengan membawa petunjuk dan agama yang benar (agama Islam), untuk dimenangkan dan ditinggikannya atas segala agama yang lain, walaupun orang-orang musyrik tidak menyukainya.
[34] Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Sesungguhnya banyak di antara pendeta-pendeta dan ahli-ahli agama (Yahudi dan Nasrani) memakan harta orang ramai dengan cara yang salah dan mereka menghalangi (manusia) dari jalan Allah (agama Islam). Dan (ingatlah) orang-orang yang menyimpan emas dan perak serta tidak membelanjakannya pada jalan Allah, maka khabarkanlah kepada mereka dengan (balasan) azab seksa yang tidak terperi sakitnya.
[35] (Iaitu) pada hari dibakar emas perak (dan harta benda) itu dalam Neraka Jahanam, lalu diselar dengannya dahi mereka dan rusuk mereka, serta belakang mereka (sambil dikatakan kepada mereka): Inilah apa yang telah kamu simpan untuk diri kamu sendiri, oleh itu rasalah (azab dari) apa yang kamu simpan itu.


Semoga Allah menetapkan dan menguatkan iman kita...Amin


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Gambar2 permata hatiku..


Adik dah pandai makan guna sudu...tapi tgk2 nanti separuh makanan atas meja

Ikram seronok dpt naik bas....

:)

Presentation lagi...

Emmm...I think I've made a number of formal presentations since I've been a PhD student...

I took about one month just to prepare a presentation...this was a situation when I was a few months started my PhD..Why I took so long?...

English....yes....english...

When I was a master student, I was still remembered how I just read from my slides during an international conference in KL. The reason was I couldn't elaborate my research in English....

Now I think I can cut the time of preparation to one week..I think now I've started to explain something in English without much preparation.....still not good..but I can see a progress...cai yo cai yo....

Last week, I gave a presentation for Autole 08..a conference for asian top univeristies in engineering.. A lot of engineering students from UoA entered this conference....biasala....supervisor suruh masuk..kenala masuk..dah dean suruh supervisor suruh student masuk....he..he..

But I think there were no students from UM. UM represents Malaysia as a top Uni in Engineering but I didn't see any of their students...emmmmm

I saw some interesting presentations.....

Some were formal (like me)

Some were interactive ( I want like this)

How this presenter can explain his presentation in an interesting way make me feel teruja...

He was talking about parallel computing which I have background about it. When I went to presentations about computer science make me feel 'rindu'...In UKM, at first I was appointed to be a tutor for comp science deparment and the head of deparment at that time wanted me to pursue my study in computer algorithm....yg dengarnya sgt susah....But lastly I'm a tutor in industrial computing department because my master's thesis was more to quality control...Since then, the faculty make a rule that if a student is a computer science student, she must do a thesis in comp science too..not like me...

So here I am .To fullfill a requirement for an expert in real-time process control for my deparment in UKM, I do a research to help process engineers to utilize past data to detect future abrnormalities in aluminium processing in real time. Hope I can use this technique to other processess too...

But to be a PhD student in engineering give me a new experience...But sometimes it's quite difficult to answer a question like "Is it difficult to be a woman engineer?" How I know because I'm not an engineer..he..he....tak terexplain yg kita nie tahu engineering sikit2 jek...

Now, I'm waiting a response from a process engineer yg mintak2 dilembutkan hatinya utk membantu dari segi data....tolongla saya..tolongla saya.....kalau pikir2 balik..mcm win-win situation..kita tolong kaji data dia, dia cuma bagi data....data yg dah lepas pulak tuh..data yang mereka akan delete pun..jadi...tolongla saya bagi data tuh..kalaula dia paham..emm....

Akhir kata, saya 'present'kan gambar2 terkini Nadhirah yg melaram pakai spek besar (spek yg hayatnyer telah tamat sekarang.)

Dakwah

After a few situations, I think I should seriously look at dakwah..
"9/11...it's a controversial date"...I just said eem....and smile...(because in my mind, I was hardly think on what should I said but nothing was coming out)
"Hari raya is a day after Ramadhan"..ooo so you're happy that the fasting month is finally finish..
I said yes...emm..when I think it again, my answer is like I'm so happy because I dont have to fasting ...ish...ish..I should said that I'm so happy to get the opportunity to be in Ramadhan..ish..ish...


I've just realised to have knowledge about giving dakwah to prepare myself in the future..especially living in non-muslim country....
And I think articles from http://islamtomorrow.com/articles/ are very good to get important knowledge in answering those 'questions'.

One of the articles :
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Bismillah Rahman Raheem
May Allah guide all of us to His Truth, ameen
"Harsh Questions Help Newcomers to Islam!" - Yusuf EstesMuslim Institutional Chaplain
Salam alaykum:
Something amazing has been happening with our dawah project. We can't believe it. Allah has Blessed us so much to be successful in our latest project for spreading Islam to the non-Muslims. They are actually coming to attack us, and then - all of a sudden they are making the shahadah and entering into Islam.
I call the project, "Answering the Harsh Questions Against Islam."
People everywhere are saying and asking horrible things like:
* Allah
* Quran
* Muhammad, peace be upon him
* Women's Rights
* 4 Wives for men - but only 1 for the women
* Marriage to 9 year old girl
* Terrorism
* Suicide Bombers
All of these questions and more have been coming to us in email and in the streets and over the phone on a daily basis.
So, I took it upon myself to bring about the common sense answers for these questions in plain and simple English language based on the teachings of the Quran and the Sunnah (way or teachings of Muhammad, peace be upon him). And it is working. This is actually helping the Muslims to do the correct dawah. Allah has almost definitely caused us to get involved to promote the true message of Islam on the same methodology as that of the prophet, peace be upon him.
Examples of Harsh Questions - That Helped Them Become Muslims After Attacking Islam:
In London Ontario, Canada a young man stood up after my talk in a masjid, dealing with the harsh questions. He asked, "Why do you pray to a black box in the desert?" -->read more at
http://www.islamtomorrow.com/articles/harsh_questions.htm

Besday Ikram and Netball

-->Happy birthday Ikram :) 10/10/2008

Ikram dan train..

Ikram dan coklat..

Ikran dan senyuman..

Ikram now is 4 years old..A big boy...in his childhood centre..he is known as Train boy..always talk about train, play with train and draw trains. Even his teacher asked him to draw trains for his friend......

Semoga menjadi anak yg soleh ye ...;)

-->Netball

Although i didn't have enough sleep at night because Nadhirah got fever, I still had enough strength to walk to the sport centre in the city to play netball..aik anak demam pun tinggal ke?...he..he..

Actually, it was like a time out for me....I need a fresh body and mind to face my sick daughter and my PhD (sbb dah 4 hari buat cuti2 sendiri..).....Terasa masa main netball, stamina punyala kurang....teringat pulak masa main persahabatan gan polis wanita..dah berusia...tapi relak jek..kalah teruk team saya....w/pun dah berlatih berbulan2..berbagai2 strategi dah belajar..tapi bila jumpa polis..jadi kelam kabut.....maklumla masa tuh budak 12 thn jumpa dewasa antara 20-40..mahu nye tak gelabah....:).....

Last sekali, tgkla gambar adik yg dah mula pandai bergaya..team netball hari tuh dan jalan2 ketika org lain sibuk kat opis..he..he...

Adik pakai baju mak ke?
Time out utk mak...Netball
Cuti2 sendiri....

Resipi agar-agar roti...

In this post I would to share a recipe for agar-agar roti.
I got this recipe from My Resipi http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/4608

I just copy and paste the recipe here and only add some information.

Bahan-bahan ( 12 biji acuan pudding )
4 keping roti
2 biji telur
1/2 cawan susu pekat
1 tin susu cair (170ml)
8gram serbuk agar2
1/2 cawan gula - bleh kurangkn
2 sudu besar butter/marjerin (cairkan)
31/2 cawan air

Cara-cara
1) Didihkan air,serbuk agar2 n gula ke dalam periuk.
2) Blend roti,telur,susu pekat n susu cair. Kemudian masukkan dalam periuk agar2 yg sudah didih td.
3) Masukkan butter/marjerin dan kacau rata sampai agak2 pekat.
4) Tuang dalam acuan. Bleh la letak pewarna apa2 kat atas tuh dan lorek2kan dgn lidi.
5) Masukkan peti ais beberapa minit sebelum mkn...dah siap...
6) SeLaMat MeNcUbe....

------My comments-------

0) Senang, cepat dan boleh buat ikut citarasa sendiri..Cth agar2 roti org buat..amik kat My Resipi

1) If you see the original post in My Resipi, they use the original colour for the agar2 powder. But I used red colour (tak perasan pun masa beli tuh). So the output is pink (merah campur putih susu)..I think it's ok because I don't have to put 'pewarna' because the look was just nice..mcm warna sirap bandung.

2) I used 7 gram agar-agar powder as every one packet of the swallow agar2 powder (picture 1) contains approximately 7gram. It turned out to be just ok. Boleh dipotong dan dipegang. Tapi agak susah la pulak nak carik agar2 powder jenama nie atau jenama2 lain. Terlepas pandang atau memang tak ada kat kedai2 yg biasa pergi (foodtown, tai ping, lim chour). Kalau ada sesiapa terjumpa kat kedai2 tersebut atau kedai yg boleh dipergi dgn jalan kaki atau naik bas, silala beritahu ye...

3) Dalam langkah ke-3 iaitu tunggu sehingga agak2 pekat, memang subjektif sikit. Cuma pd pendapat saya, campuran tuh mula pekat sikit bila telur yg dimasukkan dah mula nak masak..Jadik bila rasa telur semua dah masak, kira okayla kepekatan tuh..bolehla diangkat..Masa nak tunggu pekat pun tak lama..sbb bukan nak tunggu sampai likat (mcm puding jagung)..cuma pekat...mungkin dlm 15-20 minit...tak tgk jamla pulak masa tuh..tapi kejap jek

4) Kalau guna bekas besar, lambatla sikit nak beku..dlm 2-3 jam jugak...jadi kalau nak cepat makan, gunala bekas2 comel mcm dlm My Resipi tuh..cepat sejuk kut..dan comel...

Akhir kata, sesiapa yg gemar agar2 kentang pasti mengemari agar2 roti nie sbb rasanyer lemak dan manis..

Selamat mencuba dr saya (terutama utk my neighbour..he..he...)

Picture 1-->

http://swallow-globe.com.au/eshop/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=14

Lebaran Ini 2008

Lebaran ini..



Kerinduan masakan mak terubat jugak bila makan nasi himpit gan rendang yg mak buat dan pos dr M'sia..
* Rendang kegemaran..Thank you mak!

kalau org johor, nasi himpit tak sah kalau tak sklai gan sayur lodeh..

Memandangkan tauhu dan tempe ada jual kat Foodtown (baru perasan baru2 nie). W/pun mahal sikit, sayur lodeh punya pasal, takper..

So..bgn kul 4.00 utk masak...jeng jeng..jadila sayur lodeh..he..he..


*Sayur lodeh..


suami kata mcm mak masak..ish..ish..harunya..suami kalau dia kritik makanan memang honest..kalau tak sedap..memang tak sedapla....dia akan beritahu apa yg kurang..tapi kalau sedap dan dia puji...memang banggala sbb memang sedap betul..he..he


boleh jadik food kritik dia nie...

Sayur lodeh mak memang sedap..Mana taknyer..resipi atuk nie...ikutje la satu2..mesti jadik...



Siap masak agar2 roti....dah jadi fav pulak la skrang..tak yah guna oven dan muai..byk dpt....dan rasanyer memang saya dan anak beranak suka..tapi agar2 powder nie susahnyer nak dpt..hari tuh gi beli kat kedai Toupu (betul ke eja?) kat Albany...singgah kejap lps belajar buat nasi tomato dulu

Dah cari agar2 powder kat lim chour, tai ping dan foodtown..tapi takde plak..ish..ish..

*Agar-agar roti

So raya pertama lebih kepada mendengar takbir dirumah kerana suami penat sgt kerja semalam. Sayur lodeh dan agar-agar roti yg dah masak lebih simpan dlm peti jek..


Tapi hari kedua dpt gak beraya....bestnyer..

Gi umah yg nampak train nie, memang Ikram enjoy la...

Nadhirah pun seronok...dah tak takut org dah..tak yah warming up....agaknyer dah besar kut..dah setahun dah...

*Adik melaram gan spek mata itam


Dan semalam...Mapsa punya jamuan raya...

Mcm2 makan..tapi terlepas nak makan sayur lodeh dan nasi hijau tuh..sbb dah kenyang sgt dah...tapi semua makanan sedap2 berlaka...Ikram dan Nadhirah dok makan muffin jek..

Gambar2 nie dptla gambarkan keadaan jamuan semalam...Alhamudulillah..Ikram tak susah sgt nak control..Nadhirah pun relax jek...

*Celebriti karpet merah ??




*Abg nampak letih
*Adik pun letih gak ye.

Apa yg penting lebaran ini, kita dpt mengukuhkan silaturrahim..

Semoga diri ini sentiasa beringat utk istiqamah dlm segala amalan yg dilakukan....

Ucapan selamat..

One day in Ramadhan:
*: "Salam..Taqabbalahhu minna wa minkum"...
#: Blur kejap..
*: "Oh in Iraq, when we meet each other in Ramadhan we said Taqabbalahhu minna wa minkum. It means : Semoga Allah menerima amalan ( amalan dan ibadat di Ramadhan) kami dan kamu (tapi dia sebut dlm english la)...
#: "ooooo"....
Then today I read this from http://www.zaharuddin.net/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=612&Itemid=72 dan antara isinya:
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4) Mengucapkan selamat dan mendoakan antara satu sama lain ;
Tiada masalah untuk menggunakan apa jua kalimah, asalkan ianya mempunyai maksud yang sama. Bagaimanapun, kalimah yang digunakan di zaman baginda SAW adalah "Taqabbalahhu minna wa minkum" ertinya : Semoga Allah menerima amalan ( amalan dan ibadat di Ramadhan) kami dan kamu".
Disebut dalam sebuah riwayat :
قال واثلة لقيت رسول الله يوم عيد فقلت تقبل الله منا ومنك قال نعم تقبل الله منا ومنك
Ertinya : Berkata Wathilah, Aku bertemu Rasulullah s.a.w pada hari raya dan aku katakan pada baginda "taqabballahu minna wa minka", baginda menjawab : Ya, taqabballahu minna wa minka" ( Al-Baihaqi, rujuk perbincangan di Fath Al-Bari, 2/446 )
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Oooo baru tahu..Sblm nie tak tahu...byk lagi nak kena belajar nie..

Syawal..
Kini
Kehadiran Syawal semakin dirasai..
Namun kehadirannya bermakna perginya Ramadhan..
Adakah aku bergembira menyambut Syawal tahun ini?
Ya, aku pasti gembira kerana berpeluang merasai bulan Ramadhan sblmnya..
Tahap kegembiraan ku pasti lagi tinggi
jika pengabdianku dan amalanku padaNya meningkat di bulan Ramadhan
jika visi dan rutin hidupku berubah ke arah penghayatan Islam yang optimum..
Ya, apakah tahap kegembiraan ku pada Syawal kali ni..?
Apa yg pasti aku pasti merindukan Ramadhan..
dan mengharapkan kegembiraan yang berganda pada Syawal akan datang..sebagai tanda aku telah membenarkan pernyataan jika di atas..
Ya Allah ampunilah dosaku..
Ya Allah terimalah amalanku dibulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini....

Najah
28/9/2008

One year old - Nadhirah (5th September 2008)

We're presenting........

......Nur Nadhirah Nabihah Mohammed Reza..........

The journey began 2007....

Four months before Nadhirah was born, we safely arrived at Auckland. We received wonderful help from Mohammed Minhat's family and lunch was provided by Kak Yati's family.

Then, with Kayron's help, we managed to open a bank account and the best thing was my supervisor met my family after that. I think from that meeting my supervisor started to know that I was pregnant.

When I know I was pregnant, of course I was very happy. But in my mind, there were thousands of questions keep coming to me.

Should I go to Auckland after giving birth?How much does it cost? Does it affect my study?

Some stories and advises that I got :

"During our time, the cost was free" (before 2003)

"My friend who was just giving birth also get free maternity services" ( I think she was under NZ's grant or she started before 2003)

"When I was doing PhD, my supervisor said that you should avoid to get pregnant" (But I was already pregnant when she told me her story and was facing the morning sickness)

Then I asked a doctor

"Doctor, could you please check me weather I get Placenta Previa (uri bawah)"

"It's too early to check that"

" But I really want to know as I got Placenta Previa during my first child. I will further my study soon and I want to calculate the cost"

"My friend who was in Autralia, her maternity cost was covered by insurance"

"But Dr, I'm going to NZ, and they said it was not covered by insurance :("

The good news was my plancenta was at a right position...

So we decided to go to Auckland and giving birth there..

The changes of immigration's policy give more benefit to PhD student as they get domestic fee (that's why elaun naik 100% tuh I think) and their partner will get a working permit. So for my understanding, if you've two years working permit, you're entitled for free maternity services. But for student? You've to pay....ada pro and con laa....

To make the story short :

If you choose home birth, the cost will be much less..

If you choose auckland city hospital, the cost is about 3,600 (including tax)
If you choose other places than auckland city hospital for giving birth, the cost might below 3,000 but if you've complication, they will still send you to auckland city hospital and of course the cost might be higher..

(the cost migh be changed now)

So we choosed auckland city hospital and we also choosed not to stay there after giving birth. It means, after 4 hours from giving birth, we should arrange to go home. Otherwise I might have to pay another 300 for staying in the ward.



Before the 4 hours ended, I didnt have enough energy to get up from bed (byk darah kuar kut) but a nurse asked me to clean up myself (signal bersiap utk balik kut..he..he...). With the help from my husband, I went to a bathroom which was just inside the labour room. Then, I think, why not mandi wiladah (mandi slps melahirkan) terus. Suddenly, I got a huge source of energy after taking the bath (patutla kena mandi wiladah nie, segar) but the nurse keep asking me, " are you ok?"....dia risau sbb sblm masuk toilet mcm tak larat jek....

The first week of pantang we got delicous food from akma, kak yati, kak zakiah, ijah & makcik dan Fariza..Terima kasih la byk2...tak lupa juga Nadhirah's clothes..comei2 baju yg dibagi..

Aduhai..puteriku sayang.....itu kenangan lama...saja nak berkongsi pengalaman..anugerah tuhan nie sebenarnya tak ternilai harganya......satu amanat ...satu tanggungjawab....Semoga menjadi anak solehah ye....:)

Mak nie menulis blog pulak pagi2 nie..bukan apa, carik mood utk buat keje..(boleh mcm tuh?)..berjujuk keje nak kena buat...satu-satu dtg..apa2 hal pun stay calm..he..he...apa nak masak mlm nie..ishh nak nengok resipi pulak..bila nak start keje nie....:)



Wajah2 terkini adik:


Alaa..tertutup pulak mata adik nie...

Seronok betul ye adik....

Lagi aksi pakai tudung..

Inilah besday kek saya....made in Foodtown..belum apa2 abg Ikram dah serbu dulu..tak sampai braper minit adik (tgn yg bawah) dan abg (tgn yg atas) dah mengabiskan coklat2 kat atas tuh..kejap jek lawa kek tuh...

Apapun adik, Happy birthday to you!!!!

Motivasi

How to stay motivated?

I'm now in the mid phase of my PhD. Lately, I'm having lack of motivation so that I've been searching from the internet to look for some sources that can increase my motivation.

#First, I found this from http://www.zaharuddin.net/:

"Kita semua perlukan motivasi, motivasi yang unggul adalah motivasi untuk mendapatkan redha dan syurga Allah.
Sebagaimana nabi dan sahabat baginda. Allah s.w.t mencatatkan betapa bermotivasinya mereka mengejar keredhaan dan syurga Allah dengan firmannya :-
خِتَامُهُ مِسْكٌ وَفِي ذَلِكَ فَلْيَتَنَافَسِ الْمُتَنَافِسُونَ
Ertinya : "tempat penamat yang harum semerbak kesturi (syurga); dan untuk yang demikian itu hendaknya orang berlomba-lomba" ( Al-Mutaffifin :26 )

Jadilah dan kejarlah redha dan pahala untuk kehidupan selepas kematian. Rancanglah dan fikirlah.
Jangan jadikan pujian manusia sebagai motivasi unggul kerana ia akan mencelamu dikemudian hari.
Jangan jadikan duit sebagai motivasi unggul kerana ia akan hilang dan habis.
Jangan jadikan pangkat sebagai motivasi unggul, kerana ia juga akan tamat dan dihasadi.
Jangan jadikan keluarga sebagai motivasi unggul, kerana ia akan mati jua.
JADIKAN ALLAH, RASULNYA DAN SYURGA YANG DIJANJIKANNYA SEBAGAI MOTIVASI, NESCAYA ALLAH TIDAK AKAN MATI DAN JANJINYA TIDAK AKAN MENGECEWAKAN.

Membiarkan orang lain sahaja yang bermotivasi dalam memperolehi pahala bukanlah sifat orang beriman. Jangan biarkan kata-kata negatif orang terhadap sesuatu yang baik untuk akhirat anda, membantutkan semangat. Jadikan ia pendorong dan motivasi "

Read the full article at http://www.zaharuddin.net/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=618&Itemid=72

#The Second source is more specific to PhD students (the full article is at http://www.pgoracle.uea.ac.uk/node/155):

The seven secrets of highly successful PhD students*
Researchers who know and make use of these seven secrets get through their doctorate more quickly, and just as importantly are happier, according to the Staff Development and Training Unit, Flinders University, Australia.

1. Care and maintenance of your supervisors

2. Write and show as you go: This is show and tell, not hide and seek

3. Be realistic: It's not a Nobel Prize

4. Say no to distractions: Even the fun ones and the ones you think you must do

5. It's a job: That means working nine to five but you get holidays

6. Get help: You are not an owner-operator single person business

7. You can do it: A PhD is about intelligence and persistence

I've read the full articles for both sources and YUP...I'm more motivated now :))

Next post: Nadhirah's birthday

Macam-macam

In this post I would like to talk about many things..

Firstly..Nadhirah...got fever...and now rashes..may be it is an allergic reaction..I still have to figure out what was the cause...so sad to see her so quiet, weak and cry frequently...One night, she woke-up many times because she felt uncomfortable. Then the next day, I struggled with editing my report. It was so hectic and full of tension to be in this situation. What a pity for Ikram because he had to face this situation...sabar ye...utk mak dan anak sekali...Thanks to my husband for helping me in this situation..

Secondly..PhD...I'm now entering my first 6 months for my second year..slow progress...why? because the direction of my research is not very clear..I got some data but it didn't work with the proposed method...a few weeks with full of trying...I tried and tried again...but...no positive results...very frustrated..very....But at one time...after discussing with one of my group member, I suddenly got some idea (Alhamdulillah)...why not try like this...and it did show something.....I make a report and sent it to my supervisors. After editing the report based on my supervisors' comments (during Nadhirah was sick), I sent the report to process engineers.. and now I'm in a waiting moment...Do they like the idea...does the idea work? Hopefully, they will give a positive response so that I can go on to validate the idea...Positive response means the direction of my research is clearer and many things is awaiting for me to do after that.. I must be very very busy....Doakanla berjaya....

Thirdly..fasting..last year I was not fasting...Got a baby a few days before Ramadhan..Nur Nadhirah Nabihah...This year..yup! fasting...Hopefully my fasting will be up to one level..this level hopefully:
Puasa paling istimewa, menurut Imam al-Ghazali, iaitu puasa yang ditambah lagi dengan puasa hati daripada semua keinginan yang rendah dan fikiran keduniaan. Inilah puasa yang paling tinggi darjatnya dan puasa semacam inilah yang dikehendaki Allah, BeritaHarianOnline.

Fourthly..Bread pudding...My favourite...if there is bread..90% there will be bread pudding..

So today is the latest version..put some cashews..


Nadhirah was looking at the bread pudding...she has just relieved from a fever teething (I think)..Now, she has had rashes...Get well soon adik...Miss your keletah..

Lastly...Selamat Berpuasa semua !!!!

Poster dan gigi

What is the relationship between poster and teeth?
Well they are the topics that I would like to talk about in this post:
My posters and My daughter's first tooth..


-Engineering Postgraduate Poster Competition 2008

One of the main reasons I entered this competition is that to visualize my research.
A Prof said during a prize giving ceremony for the competition:
" Poster is a brief description of your research"

Another Prof said:
"Try to balance between figures and words..
Do not use small fonts...sometimes it is very hard to read..
Use a good combination of colour"
This is general advice that I got after the competition.

Before the competition I went to course about:
"How to make a good academic poster" at SLC.
It was a very good course as the facilitator showed me some examples of good and bad posters.
After went through some editing processes based on comments from my husband (thanks cunyu!) and also my supervisor, here is the result:

(click to enlarge)

It was not really an artistic work. It was just a poster that I want the audience could understand the main idea of my research. I think I know what make other posters were better than me. They visualized every sections of the poster. I only put more focus on the result section. I should try to visualize other sections as well.

When the mood of making poster was still there, I was thinking to submit a poster for auis poster competition for Ramadhan. I had started to collect information even from journals from science direct. I'd found journals about effect of Ramadhan for smokers, for diabetes, for sportsman etc...Then I remembered some info from an Ustaz who said that Ramadhan is a month of changing ourself. 30 days of fasting and doing only good things are actually the best way to change our 'tabiat'. Tabiat is not easy to change but with 30 days of training, it is possible for us to stay in a way that we want to change. A good training too for smokers. I forgot the source of the info but I used the concept of transformation in my poster. However, as the info must be accurate, I couldn't finish the poster with so limited time. So this was the result on the due date (15/8):




:) tak sempatla...tu jek yg mampu...


-Gigi saya

Now, My daughter's teeth.....
After waiting so long (when Nadhirah nearly one year), finally her teeth have come out...
Can you see them? Have a look...:)




(click to enlarge)
Tengokla..saya dah ada gigi..:)