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O Allah, increase me in knowledge....

2011-03-10T21:23:00.000-08:00

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Today I would like to write about PhD...

An interesting subject..he..he...

The key points that I would like highlight here are:

1) Knowledge

2) Akhlak

3) Determination

4) Oppurtunity

5) Pray

How these points are related to each other...?

In doing PhD, the determination to seek knowledge is high. This together with good akhlak, doa and right opportunity may help you in surviving the PhD life...but, there are still lot of variables that need to be considered..Allah knows best...

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O Allah increase me in knowledge....

I begin my PhD with little knowledge of my subject area...
I also begin with low level of english proficiency....
I also begin with lacks of knowledge about almost everythings......

Determinations is the key factor to improve our situations...All begins with niat....

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PhD…It’s a spiritual journey…..

Ayat drpd seorang pensyarah yg saya hormati ketika berkongsi pengalamannya……

Setelah hampir 4 tahun aku dalam perjalanan ini, memang diakui ia satu perjalanan yang mendekatkan diri kepada Allah….

Banyak perkara yang dipelajari dan ingin diperbaiki…
Berikut adalah antara perkara-perkara yang terserap di dalam jiwa dan ingin terus-menerus dipelajari..Moga memberi manfaat pada semua dan peringatan pada diri sendiri….

1) Istigfar banyak2, pesan ibuku, ketika aku mengadu stress di saat2 ini....Istigfar banyak2 dan bedoala kepadaNya atas segala masalah kita..

Ini pula doa yg diperolehi dr you tube “Ya Allah, aku mengakui segala nikmatmu padaku, Ya Allah, aku mengakui segala dosaku, maka ampunilah aku…” berdoa sambil rasa serendah-rendahnya dihadapan kerajaan Allah yang maha agung…Sumber: Dr Maza

2) Sering terjumpa di pelbagai sumber di dalam internet tentang pentingnya berakhlak mulia…Namun, diri sering tertanya bagaimana untuk mencapainya? Beberapa cara yang boleh membawa kita kepada mencapainya:
a. Mohon dari Allah, Yang Maha Bijaksana : “ Ya Allah, bimbinglah aku ke arah akhlak yang mulia, hanya Engkau sahaja ya Allah, yang dapat membimbingku, Ya Allah, lindungilah aku drpd akhlak yang buruk, hanya Engkau sahaja ya Allah yang dapat melindungiku drpd akhlak yang buruk” amin…..sumber: emmm...kena cari balik drpd mana...
b. Pelajari ilmu drpd buku2 yang menarik, cthnya Enjoy your life. Balik Malaysia InsyaAllah nak cari satu.
c. Membaca buku yang dibeli di Malaysia bila balik baru2 ini: 101 akhlak Rasulullah…Cuba membacanya sehari, satu hadith, pada Ikram dan Nadhirah..Mereka suka tgk gambar yang menarik kat buku ni..Hakikatnya, maknya yang membacakan untuk mereka, sebenarnya yang terpikir, eh..byk yang aku kena belajar ni….
d. Mohon dr Allah dan berusaha agar dapat sahabat yang beraklak mulia agar kita dpt pelajari darinya…

3) Meningkatkan ilmu agama….Ketika menonton Voice of Islam, TV, satu pesanan peceramah yang memberi kesan pada diri: “O Allah, increase me in knowledge”…..Alhamdulillah..Online Islamic University memberi jalan untuk meningkat ilmu agamaku yang memang banyak yang perlu diperlajari…Baru mula sikit..start dgn amik subjek akidah …..ada test..ada video…dan free….Jom kita belajar ....
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Conclusions...

This post investigates my thinking about my current life....insyaAllah..Doakan saya berjaya dlm PhD..Doakan saya agar berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat..Moga kita semua berjaya...........amin

Syawal yang sangat bermakna di Auckland: 2010

2010-09-16T19:14:00.000-07:00

Happy Eid Nazatul ! Wish daripada supervisor sempena hari raya..

Semalam pulak, "when is hari raya Nazatul"..group member yang lain tanya..

Sejak supervisor dan groupnya ada projek dengan Petronas, makin mereka tahu tentang orang Malaysia..Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah, syukur kepada Allah s.w.t kerana melahirkan rasa gembira di hati2 kita di hari raya :). Syawal 2010 ini dirasakan sangat meriah..

Mungkin kerana last raya di perantauan?

Mungkin kerana Nadhirah ikut sekali solat raya?

Tapi hakikatnya apa yang didambakan:

TaqabbalaLlah minna wa minka

Jarak masa post terbaru sempena raya ni gan lama agak jauh gak..Banyak yang dah berlaku..

Mak gan adikku2 datang masa Jun...best best! Gi jalan2..tapi yang paling best, tgk muka mak pun dah cukup best :)

Naik Royal Brunei masa balik Msia (Auckland-Brunei-Kuala Lumpur)...mencabar sbb ada transit tu...

Kali ini, sejak baca blog Zaharuddin.net, rasa perlu cari cara2 nak solat dgn kapal terbang dgn lebih tepat..dulu main2 agak2 je bila masuk waktu solat. Sekarang ni, kenalpasti bila waktu solat berdasarkan waktu solat tempat yang dilalui kapal terbang. Check awal2 sblm naik kapal terbang lagi. Bestnya royal brunei ada tunjuk arah kiblat, lagi senang. Lagi best, bila balik time puasa hari tu, pramugari tanya, nak sahur tak? Nanti dia sediakan makanan. Jadi hari tu, kami bersahur ikut waktu Australia sbb masa tu kapal lalu Australia. Dan disebabkan kiblat arah belakang tempat duduk, kami solat kat tempat solat. Selesa jugak..pramugari tu siap bentangkan kain selimut yang baru jadi sejadah. Pengalaman pertama naik Royal Brunei. Alhamdullillah, makin terasa betapa hebatnya kerajaan Allah di langit dan dibumi ketika sujud di dalam kapal terbang, apatah lagi ketika itu berada di bulan mulia, bulan Ramadhan.

July, pergi Singapore dgn bawak kereta, satu pengalaman baru ni...bukan mudah drive sendiri ke Singapore rupanya..Tapi berbaloi sbb conference tu (PSE ASIA 2010) memang sgt2 best. Rasa first time pulak pergi conference yang dipenuhi orang2 expert..dan ditanya soalan oleh orang2 expert ni ketika presentation...:)

Sempat puasa seminggu kat Msia..Pelikla, bila kat Msia tak rasa sgt nak beli makanan kat pasar ramadhan ke..restoran ke..Mungkin masakan mak dan mami telah cukup memenuhi selera makan..Yummy

Phd?........

Tgh apply extension..

Kali ini dpt tgk comment supervisor tentang progress sbb nak antar skali gan extension application. Rupa2nya rendah level penulisan bahasa inggerisku...Memang tahu tak reti pun tulis english nie, tapi tak sangka rendah ooo penilaian supervisor...Takper semangat ni nak improve..Harap2 sempatla improve sbb balik Malaysia nanti..insyaAllah...

Akhir kata..

"Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf zahir batin". Harap dapat diampunkan segala2nya.

Semoga kita tergolong dalam golongan kanan...amin

The people of knowledge

2010-01-21T20:42:00.000-08:00

2010- Begin with aim to be "the people of knowledge"

Allah - beginning with the name of - the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

[Fatir 35:28] And similarly the colours of men and beasts and cattle, are different; among the bondmen of Allah, only the people of knowledge fear Him; indeed Allah is the Most Honourable, Oft Forgiving.

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Knowledge, searching until the end..

In PhD, the real knowledge only appears after months/ years of searching the knowledge..Sometimes, I even closed my eyes after doing the data analysis, hope the results to be ok but....:( Only Allah knows..

May be the knowledge doesn't come in the way that we want or expect...

But continously searching the knowledge and asking Allah for help is the best way to do...Keep moving forward Naja!

And I'm also worried about the knowledge that my 6 years old son should receive. Before he can finally go to school, I've started searching some softwares that he can play around to get ready for reading..

Some are:

http://www.wartoft.nu/software/sebran/

http://www.yourchildlearns.com/lettersounds.htm

For alif, ba, ta, watching the vidoe (below) is quite fun especially for Nadhirah..:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yK9kq0UMDdY

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All in all, this PhD seems to be the longest and hardest journey of study for me. Semoga dipermudahkan jalannya ya Allah...

However, the key of success is to be among the people of knowledge, who knows the greatest and the power of Allah..

PhD dan Jalan-jalan...

2009-11-16T21:40:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Dup dap dup dap..bunyi jantung makin ketara...

Sekarang sudah masuk 6 bulan kedua utk PhDku ini..

Chapters dah siap==0

Journal dah published==0

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Extension forms dah di belek2..

Rancangan untuk tambah masa makin mendebarkan jantung...

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2-3 minggu ini sungguh2 memikirkan tentang thesis dan rancangan masa extension.

Seorang sahabat yang sedang buat PhD di Singapore mencadangkan agar aku buat Table of contents dulu utk thesis tu..Pas tu filling the parts...

Candangan yang bernas!

Tapi hari ini terstop kejap keje thesis sbb kepala dah pening..Aku kena rehat kejap nie...

“Ya Haiyyum, Ya Qayyum, dengan rahmatMu daku memohon pertolongan. Baikilah seluruh urusanku, dan janganlah Engkau serahkan diriku ini kepadaku walaupun sekelip mata” (Riwayat al-Nasai, dinilai sahih oleh al-Albani).

Doa yang tedapat di website Dr MAZA ini sgt mengesankan jiwa..Semoga dipermudahkan urusanku didunia dan diakhirat....amin..

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Okay citer pasal jalan2 pulak..he.he..

W/pun sudah 2 thn lebih disini..byk sungguh tempat belum diexplore...

Strawberry tak terpetik lagi...pantai2 yg indah belum dikunjungi...

Baru2 nie baru sampai ke One Tree Hill..

Nak kata aku tak suka jalan, suka...
emmm....

InsyaAllah, akan rancang jalan2 juga sikit2....

Suami pun dah start keje part time drpd full time.. Jadi, perancangan mesti dibuat dgn rapi...Semangat ini nak jalan..dan buat masa terdekat ni, semoga terlaksana juga hasrat mengunjungi sahabat...

Semoga segala2 yang kulakukan ini mendekatkan diri dgn yang Maha Esa..amin

Najah

Gambar2 di One Tree Hill

Expose yourself!

2009-10-22T10:57:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.

Expose yourself? This article is actually about Exposure 2009.

Exposure 2009 was an event for exposing the master and PhD students of the University of Auckland to the public. This year, I entered the oral and poster competition..Did I win? No, but I'm still very happy. Why? One of the reasons is: my friend, Kak Fariza, won the second prize in the poster competition...My very warmest congratulations to kak Fariza (ikut ayat HOD)..Yay!!!! I'm proud that one of the Malaysian students be among the top. Malaysia kan boleh..

Other reasons:

1) " How well you value your knowledge (ilmu) that you've got and share that feeling to other people so that they can appreciate the value of the knowledge. As we know all the knowledge are from Allah, The Most Wise"...this is my finest conclusion after entering the competition...

2) Got a good template and knowledge on how to present your idea. And I also got these comments from one of the judges:

"Overall in your session all of us judges noted that the standards were generally high—all the presentations were interesting, well prepared, and well described. The factor that nudged one person ahead slightly was the sense of more of a personality injected into the presentation, coming out from behind the podium and engaging directly with the research. But your panel was close in terms of quality—you probably got that feeling yourself if you heard a few of the others", Dr Susan Carter, SLC.

I think injecting our personality into the presentation is not easy...But if you can do that, your presentation will be more interesting as you're sharing the beautiful of the knowledge from your perspective. I think I should apply this concept to any presentation including when giving lectures in the future.

3) (tukar BM pulak) Seronok bila ramai2 berkumpul masa 'prize giving'..akma, lina, razak, kak fariza dan paling teruja bila Kak fariza menang..lagi tambah ceria suasana..Plus saya sempat la bertegur sapa dgn HOD dgn adanya kak Fariza, kalau saya sorang tak tertegur..Penting kenal HOD nie, utk urusan akan datang..he..he..

Apalagi...expose yourself next year!

wassalam

Gambar-gambar....

Fig. 1: Inilah poster saya...

Fig. 2: Ini poster Lina..tgk betul2..ada gambar Razak dlm tu...

Fig. 3: Can fruit juices be pasturised without heating? Tanyala kak Fariza..he..he..

Fig. 4. Saya dan poster saya...:)

Selingan: doakan kejayaan Phd saya nie...:)

Merenung diri sendiri..

2009-10-01T15:24:00.000-07:00

'It's tonsillitis and it's very painful', said the Doctor...
I do agree how painful it is...
Sakit ini membuatkan aku tak boleh berfikir..badan mengigil, sakit2 otot, pening, demam dan yang paling ketara: sakit tekak yang amat!

Bila sakit nie, aku fikir "kenapa aku sakit ?"
Kadang2 apa2 sakit pun, kita perlu jelas puncanya dan mencari ubat utk menyembuhkannya..

Kalau sakit mcm tonsillitis, bolehla jumpa Dr dan berdoa byk2.
Kalau sakit hati, bagaimana pula caranya?
Hari tu aku tersakit hati..Berhari2 gundah gulana. .Satu hari, aku pandang luar tingkap dan pikir " Kenapa boleh jadi mcm nie, byknya masa terbuang melayani perasaan ini. Bukankah hidup ini untuk mendapat keredhaan Allah. Mendapat belas kasihannya. Jadi, apa kata kalau aku buang rajuk aku jauh2, dan mengambil langkah positif untuk mengatasinya. W/pun egoku tercabar pada mulanya, tapi puas dan bersyukur akhirnya, kerana apa2 yang kita lakukan kerana untuk mencapai keredhaan Allah, insyaAllah, ketenangan yang akan kita kecapi. W/pun mengambil masa berhari2, tapi berbaloi"...
Lain kali aku akan mengelak drpd mewujudkan keadaan yang membuatkan akhirnya aku yang sakit hati..tu la..bila pikir2 balik, memang silap aku pun...he..he.

Jadi, disebabkan tonsillitis dan "sakit hati", seminggu dua nie memang kerja PhD stop kejap. Org minta data, minta plans, aku cakap aku akan bagi time dah baik nanti...Byk nak kena buat la lps baik nanti...emm..Presentation ada 2 dalam October nie, satu exposure, satu lagi kat light metal..Kalaula buat presentation benda sama, senang sikit. Tapi yg exposure, present benda yang dah publish kat conference proceeding. Utk light metal pulak, present teknik terbaru (berdoa sgt2 ini teknik yang terakhir) untuk PhD aku nie... Sajer gatal nak masuk oral presentation pulak untuk exposure thn ni..konon nak prepare awal2, tapi dah sakit, ikut je la mana yang mampu....

Jadi, doakanla....
Doakanla kesihatan kami sekeluarga...
dan juga PhD ku ini....

wassalam..

Lebaran 2009

2009-09-26T03:40:00.000-07:00

Nadhirah.bukan main seronok raya thn nie...Mcm budak dah besar..

Raya pertama: semua ceria!

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Alhamdulillah..

Raya tahun ini disambut dengan meriah dan gembira..

Kesyukuran di atasnya nikmatnya yang tak terhingga...

Kalau tgk kat facebook, rata2 status: extraordinary hari raya this year....raya yang sgt meriah thn ni..

Kami juga turut merasai kemeriahan yang lebih drpd sblmnya..

Adakah kerana amalan yang semakin bertambah dibulan Puasa?

Semoga Allah menerima segala amalan kita..amin...

Kuih raya..iye, ini membuatkan aku hampir2 demam ..he..he..Dah lama tak rasa, pergi pulak rumah yang ada kuih raya, apa lagi mcm ala2 wanita mengidam la pulak...Apsal tak buat sendiri je Naja? kalau mak aku, mesti kata "kalau dah minat, sibuk mcm mana, buat juga"...

Tu la, minat tu kurang sikit sbb nak kena tunggu kat oven lama...he..he...

Alhamdulillah, hari kedua raya, terima parcel dari mami! Thn lps mak bagi, thn nie mami pulak..

Kerepek, bahulu...memang puas la..2 balang abis dah nie..

PhD? dekat2 nak raya, dpt result poster..Pertandingan poster kali nie agak meluas publisitinya kerana ketua jabatan dan ajk poster menyenaraikan nama pemenang kepada semua..Thn lps, takde pulak mcm nie...Rasa seronok thn nie kerana ramai student malaysia yg masuk...Malaysia boleh!

Alhamdulillah, call conference gan org industri berjalan lancar w/pun ada benda yg aku dan diorang tak paham..maklumla org Dutch vs org Melayu bercakap..he..he..Apapun, more data analysis is needed!

Lastnya, terima kasih di atas makanan2 yg sedap di bulan yg syawal ini..w/pun Ikram tak sihat sejak hari kedua raya, dan aku sibuk gan progress report, meeting dan call confrence pada minggu pertama raya, rasa gembira Syawal kali ini tetap diparas yang tinggi :)

wassalam...

Ramadhan kali ini....

2009-09-11T14:31:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah..

Hari nie sudah hari ke 22 dan kini dalam 10 malam terakhir...Moga kita dapat mengecapi 'Malam kemuliaan'...

Aku, puasa kali nie lebih mencabar..Sinus datang pada hari pertama puasa...Paling teruk pulak rasanya...Antibiotik habis, barula lega sikit..tapi kini mcm nak dtg balik...Harap2la tak teruk...(tu la byk sgt dosa nie)

Bagi wanita, waktu tidak boleh puasa besar kemungkinan akan dirasai..
Tahun lps aku berdoa, agar waktu itu dilewatkan drpd biasa agar aku boleh beribadah di waktu 10 malam terakhir...Alhamdulillah, waktu itu dtg pada hari terakhir puasa...
Tahun ini pula, aku berdoa agar waktu itu tidak panjang seperti biasa kerana sbb yang sama iaitu untuk beribadah di waktu 10 malam terakhir...Alhamdulillah..syukur sgt2 kerana Allah memang mendengar doa kita....The key point here: berdoala byk2, jika doa kita tidak dimakbulkan, mungkin ada hikmahnya..tapi yang penting kita tetap berdoa termasukla perkara2 yang tidak dpt kita kawal....

Semoga diri ini sentiasa beringat yang hidup ini untuk menjadi orang2 yang soleh utk beroleh rahmat drpd Allah...amin...

Gambar2 sampingan:

Ramadhan kali ini, mak bertenaga sikit sbb sudah lengkap tempoh penyusuan adik selama 2 thn. Semoga adik terus sihat dan ceria :)

PhD pulak, memang confirm amik extension..Nak kena tanya org nie mcm mana prosedur..Supervisor kata ok, dia kata bagi reason data lambat dpt. Pas tu, nasib baik meeting gan org industri ditangguhkan ke lps raya..sbb masa awal puasa, hampir 2 minggu melayani sakit....Kesimpulannya: Jgn buat keje last minute Naja! Hargaila masa anda tu....

Akhir kata, doakanla saya...:)

40 tahun lagi ke Alam Tua Bangka (jika pjg umur)

2009-08-15T12:54:00.000-07:00

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha penyayang.

Alhamdulillah, bertambah setahun lagi umurku dan semoga sempat menghayati Ramadhan pada tahun ini.

Tahun ini perasaan agak berbeza. Mengira hari ke tarikh 15 dan berangan awal2 nak buat cheesecake. Mixer yg rosak dah dibeli baru dan bahan2 utk dibuat cheesecake dah beli siap2.

Entah kenapa kali nie perasaaan agak teruja. Mungkin kerana aku akan melewati alam dewasa dlm 5 tahun lagi seperi yang dikategorikan oleh Ibnul Jawzi:

*"Alam yang kita menjalani hidup di dunia.
Ibnul jawzi telah membahagikan peringkat-peringkat umur itu kepada lima kategori:
1. Masa kanak-kanak: iaitu dari peringkat umur bayi hingga seseorang itu mencapai umur lima belas tahun.
2. Masa muda: iaitu dari peringkat umur lima belas tahun (15), hingga umur tiga puluh lima tahun (35).
3. Masa dewasa: iaitu dari peringkat umur 35 tahun, hingga 50 tahun.
4. Masa tua: iaitu dari peringkat umur 50 tahun hingga umur 70tahun.
5. Masa tua Bangka, iaitu dari peringkat umur 70 tahun hinggalah ke akhir umur yang dikurniakan Tuhan"

Ya, lagi 5 tahun lagi ke alam dewasa tetapi mungkin dalam waktu itu aku ditentukan untuk pergi ke :

*"Alam yang ketiga
Di alam Barzakh, ketika kita di kubur.

Alam yang Allah S.W.T telah nyatakan dalam firmannya: “Dan di hadapan mereka terdapat Barzakh, hinggalah ke hari mereka dibangkitkan.” (Al-Mu’minun: 100)

Doaku:

“Ya Allah, akhirilah hidup kami dengan husnul-khatimah (akhir yang baik), dan jangan Kau akhiri hidup kami dengan suu-ul-khatimah (akhir yang buruk)”

Semalam, menjadi juga cheesecake. Separuh bawa ke program MAPSA, separuh lagi rezeki utk kakak2 yang sgt sejuk mata memandang yang membawa sekali tiramisu yang lazat...:) Ikram dan Nadhirah seronok sgt..

Alhamdulillah. Semoga tahun ini aku berubah menjadi lebih baik dan menjadi hamba, ibu, isteri dan anak solehah...amin

Gambar2 pengisi blog kali ini:

1: Seronoknya Abg gan Adik main dlm bakul nie ye...:)

2:Simbolik: three slices of cakes == Nombor tiga dlm angka depan umurku skrang

3: Kakak2 yang menyeronokkan Abg dan Adik..

4: Di program MAPSA, adik bersama mak yang bergaya dgn tudung barunya yg sgt disukainya..he.he..

5: Suamiku yg tercinta.....menunggu abg dan adik yg sibuk dgn stroller..

Akhir kata: "Selamat menyambut Ramadhan!"....

*sumber:http://www.perjalanansuci.com/Informasi/Manusia5Alam.htm

'Alam PhD'

2009-07-12T16:18:00.000-07:00

PhD ni ada alam dia sendiri ke?

Mungkin ada sbb bila register je buat PhD, seolah2 kita berada dlm persekitaran, fokus, gaya kerja dan motivasi yg berbeza dgn yg sebelumnya..

Alam PhD nie pulak berbeza2 utk setiap org..

Tips PhD, how to survive your PhD memang berguna sebagai general guideline tetapi hakikatnya bila sudah berada dlm alam PhD ini, individu tersebut juga akan mencipta satu guideline yg lebih spesifik dgn dirinya....What works for me, what not..

Hari tu , Alhamudulillah berupaya juga pergi doctoral forum "Originality:Spark of new knowledge". w/pun kesihatan sgt2 kritikal. Masa forum tu, badan dah mengigil2 tak tahan. Tapi kuatkan juga sbb nie je la peluang nak pergi...

Yg nak pergi sgt forum nie sbb nak dptkan tips bagaimana nak mengolah thesis supaya originality terpancar!

Antara perbincangan yg saya suka ialah pengalaman 3 org yg dpt best thesis award utk last year.

Sorang tu, results experimen hanya ok slps 2 thn dan dia kata hard to stay motivated.

Dia kata teruskan jer sampai berjaya...bagus tu..

Tapi yg penting : published kat journal.

Sbb kalau dah published, kita mesti dah clearly defined originality tu dan dah bersusah payah mengarang journal. (emmm...mcm mana nie , satu journal pun tak nampak bayang lagi nie....)

Kepala pening belum ilang sepenuhnyer lagi ..bila suami demam, anak2 demam, maknyer demam pulak..haru biru juga jadinyer...

Alhamdulillah..semuanyer beransur2 pulih....kalau tak, risau juga disaat wabak mcm nie...So dah seminggu break kejap ..bila mahu start nie..selera makan dah pulih sikit tapi selera utk sambung keje balik belum mahu datang lagi laa...:(

--> Gambar adik ketika ada selera makan....

An evolving timeline

2009-06-12T14:38:00.000-07:00

'Masa itu Emas'...

Before I get married, I used to think how my life will be with kids and husband..

And just now, after watching voice of Islam (my favourite program since this is one of the programs that make me feel like watching a TV in Malaysia), I began to think how my life will be in Heaven....I try to put myself in that situation.

Which level of Heaven that I will be but the most important question is am I eligible enough to enter the paradise?

We always prepare ourself to something that we know will happen..

We try to rehearse our presetation as many as we can for an upcoming seminar...

Before winter, we prepare some suitable clothes for our kids...

But for our life after death, have I make a proper preparation for that?

Selesakah aku nanti di kubur kelak?

Persolan yg perlu aku sentiasa ingat....

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How about my PhD life..Someone said that this PhD life is like a cycle..one day you might be on the top..but another day you might be on the bottom...but usually the cycle tend to be at the bottom than at the top..

For me, there is no shortcut to get the PhD degree..but my motivation seem to become less with this long journey.. I wish to get back my motivation while I was pregnant..

Although we might be short in physical ability during pregnancy but yet we might get a very strong desire and emotional ability to get through all the difficulties. InsyaAllah...

Lastly, doakanla kejayaan untukku for my phd life and also the real life........

--> Gambar anak2 penenang jiwa tapi kerap kali menguji kesabaran..he..he...

--> Adik tgk tv gan 'kawan'...

--> Ikram suka sgt buat aksi sendiri masa amik gambar..

--> Senyum sikit dik..

--> Adik yg cuba senyum lps nangis berebutkan train abg dia...

aduh...aku terkena lagi...

2009-03-19T16:13:00.000-07:00

Ingat Allah byk2....
Sabar...
Berubah ke arah kebaikan...
Berjuang menjadi muslimah cemerlang...
Yakin boleh....

Aku tak boleh jadi org lain ..tapi aku perlu berubah utk mendpt keredhaan Allah..

PhDku dan Anak-Anakku

2009-03-06T13:22:00.000-08:00

Tik tok tik tok…emmm the time run very fast..
I’m now entering my third year of my PhD in a couple of months..
How your progress?
A bit late of my scheduled tasks plus much more additional tasks must be carried on..
This new semester of 2009, I will be a marker for two subjects. I’m not an expert for these subjects so it’s not easy for me.
My group in the science building wants to build a commercial software. I will part of it..More meeting to attend and more data analysis and testing should be done. But all of these tasks are ok with me as my participation in the project might help to enhance the quality of my research. And also it will give me valuable experience in software development.
Papers?
I’ve been struggling to finish the writing of two papers. One for a IEEE conference in NZ and one is for a journal. The paper for the IEEE conference is almost finish but the journal paper, need a lot of changes..
I have two bad experiences about journal submission during my master. My papers were rejected with ‘unpleasant comments’….So for this one, which is for my PhD, I’ve to make sure that the paper is up to the standard of the journal..

How about my family?
‘Mencabar”..the only word that can describe my situation now..
I do respect with Phd students who have many little children and gain success in their PhD. They remained calm, strong and yet more productive. They even can write s few journal articles…
Bagaimana dgn anak-anaku
Anakku Ikram,
A big boy now..
Sometimes he said “it’s not funny Ikram”..He repeated what his teachers had said to him. I know why the teachers said like that. It is because Ikram were doing something that he thinks funny but actually annoying other people. This situation usually happens when Ikram is sleepy or tired. He will be a bit lost of control…The solution: put him on a bed..
Anakku Nadhirah…
Adek like to explore. She even climbs tables to get what she wants like pencils and camera. If she plays with Ikram, the situation in the house will be similar to a childhood center. The generated noise is like comes from many children…

Kedua2 anakku suka makan kek..
Baru2 nie cuba resipi blueberry muffin..
Suka rasanya sampaikan bila nampak ada lagi muffin kat bekal Ikram masa amik dia, rasa suka sgt..Sbb tak puas makan lagi..
Kali kedua buat, kurang sikit rasa sbb terkurang gula…sbb ganti brown sugar dgn white sugar (white sugar abis pulak).jadi terkurang manis …pas tu terlupa letak cinnamon dan terlebih tepung kat crumble muffin tuh…..takper lain kali mesti cuba lagi sbb nak rasa mcm yg first time buat…

Kesimpulannya, buat Phd + membesarkan anak2 = teruji kesabaran + kesuntukan masa

Dah ada Phd + Anak2 yg cemerlang = kepuasan + kesyukuran

Gambar muffin yg sedap tapi teritam sikit..

Adik kat Cornwall park

Adik tgk2 luar gan abg Ikram

Di tingkap ini tempat yg disukai Ikram dan Adik

Sbb kat tingkap nie nampak laut dan Sky city:

Syukur di atas segala nikmatNya..

Motivasi pagi

2009-02-03T13:33:00.000-08:00

Kalau dah demam, memangla tak bersemangat nak buat keje...
Tapi kalau tak demam pun, semangat pun kurang jugak..
Jadi hari ni, w/pun demam mcm dah kurang tapi pening2 kepala tuh ada, saya still nak mencari semangat yang hilang...Tapi hari nie still dok rumah so kalau pening senang nak tido..
Lagipun kerja byk yg nak kena buat..writing, data analysis, presentation...
Kalau boleh nak sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit..tak nakla dah sampai waktu, baru nak prepare...tension nanti...
Mcm presentation, hari Isnin nie supervisor nak buat dry run..tak prepare lagi tuh..
Minggu dpn memang busy. Isnin, Selasa dan Rabu ada meeting. Maklumla skrang nie saya dah masuk 2 group. satu contol group kat light metal dan satu lagi control group under supervisor. So bila dua2 buat meeting, kenala join...
So sekarang nie nak naikan semangat dgn motivasi...

Motivasi diri bermula dgn diri sendiri...cuma nak kena cari ilmu bagaimana motivasi itu lebih berjaya..salah satu artikel yg saya jumpa dr satu website..Bagus utk saya yg pagi2 baca news dan mengantuk sokmo....

7 Perkara Yang Membuat Anda Bermotivasi Di Waktu Pagi
May 19, 2008 By Shukri Abdullah

Perkara terbaik yang Anda patut lakukan di waktu pagi, adalah :
1. Bersyukur, bersyukur, bersyukur.Bersyukurlah sebab Anda masih diberi peluang untuk meneruskan hidup, Anda masih ada kesempatan untuk melakukan yang terbaik hari ini, lebih baik dari yang kelmarin.
2. Tekad Bermotivasi.Pasang niat dalam hati yang Anda mahu jadi bersemangat sepenuhnya. Ambil beberapa artikel-artikel motivasi pendek dan baca dalam seminit dua.
Di waktu awal pagi, jangan buka email, baca newspaper, baca gosip-gosip mahupun join sesi mengumpat bersama kawan-kawan. Sebab, ia menerbitkan energi negatif lalu menghalang Anda dari bermotivasi sepanjang hari.
3. Dekatkan Diri Dengan Sesi Motivasi.Ikuti sesi-sesi motivasi di media, misalnya Motivasi Pagi di TV3 dan sesi motivasi Dr Izzy di Hot FM. Luangkan masa 3-5 minit memberi motivasi pada diri sendiri melalui sesi-sesi motivasi pendek ni.
Motivasi harus dijaga, sebab kalau tak di jaga Anda ia mudah turun. Kesannya, Anda jadi tak bersemangat, lemah longlai dan lemas.
4. Dalam Apa Jua Yang Anda Buat, Mulakan Dengan Bismillah.Bila Anda start punch card nak masuk kerja, baca Bismillah, moga Anda dijauhkan dari bisikan syaitan yang membuat Anda lalai, mengantuk, macam tak cukup ‘cas betri’ saja.
Andai kata Anda seorang pelajar, start nak masuk kelas, duduk di kerusi Anda dan start nak bukak buku, mulakan semuanya dengan Bismillah. Moga apa jua yang Anda lakukan mendapat keberkatan.
Masuk aje kelas, pasang niat Anda mahu menuntut ilmu. Bila istiqamah melakukannya, Anda punya peluang cerah untuk menjadi cemerlang!
5. Set Target Kemajuan Diri SendiriIni juga kurang dititikberatkan. Bila dah keluar rumah sama ada ke kelas atau ke tempat kerja, kita tak tahu apa yang kita nak capai hari tu. Betul tak?
Kita hanya nak sampai di sana, bekerja (atau menghadiri kelas) lepas tu nanti petang balik rumah, berehat, makan, minum, pastu tidur. Esok pagi, bangun dan perkara sama berulang lagi.
Hidup Anda bagai dalam 1 bulatan, situ-situ saja.
Mulai hari ini, ubah sikap Anda. Set target apa yang Anda mahu capai, lagi best setkan untuk setiap hari.
Andai Anda seorang pelajar, set target berapa bab yang Anda nak ulangkaji, berapa buah buku yang Anda nak baca dalam minggu ni, berapa soklan Anda nak tanya dengan lecturer Anda nanti.
Andai Anda seorang usahawan, set target berapa jualan yang Anda nak capai hari ini dan berapa keuntungan yang Anda nak dapat hasil dari bisnes Anda. Set juga apa yang Anda nak pelajari hari ni dalam bidang bisnes Anda.
Andai Anda seorang pekerja, set berapa tugas yang Anda nak siapkan dan set limit masa untuk Anda menyiapkan segalanya. Kecekapan seorang pekerja di nilai dari kepantasan, ketepatan dan kekemasan.
6. Lihat Warna CerahWarna boleh mempengaruhi mood. Warna cerah membuat kita jadi energetik, ceria dan penuh dengan idea.
Setiap hari, lihat warna-warna yang cerah seperti kuning, merah, biru dan hijau. Cara ni saya dah test sendiri, berkesan sungguh!
Dekatkan diri dengan benda-benda berwarna cerah sebab ia mampu merubah mood Anda menjadi positif.
7. Penuhkan Hati Dengan KemaafanLepaskan segala yang dulu-dulu. Maafkan orang diwaktu pagi, maafkan kesalahan semuanya dari dulu sampai sekarang.
Lepaskan dendam, rasa tak puas hati, geram, sakit hati dan yang sewaktu dengannya.
Andai emosi-emosi negatif ni bersarang di hati (walaupun sedikit) ia menghalang motivasi. Kesannya, Anda jadi orang yang tak bersemangat langsung.
Lebih teruk, Anda jadi orang yang berfikiran negatif, hanya nampak yang negatif dalam diri setiap orang, setiap situasi dan setiap benda.
Anda mesti berubah untuk kemajuan diri.
Berani Berubah Untuk Kecemerlangan Hidup!
diambil drpd:
http://www.imotivasi.com/7-perkara-yang-membuat-anda-bermotivasi-di-waktu-pagi/#comment-4531

Oh ya, hari ni besday suami tercinta...dah masuk 30 dah dia....dan dah 5 tahun kami bergelar suami isteri...
Alhamdulillah, semoga dia dikurniakan iman yang teguh dan menjadi suami, ayah dan anak yang soleh. Doakanla isterimu berjaya dlm misi PhDnya nie..:)

Akhir kata,
Kita dikurniakan Akal oleh Allah utk berfikir dan bertindak..Jadi gunakanla sebaik2nya..
Dan saya pernah terbaca seorang prof yg masuk Islam..Awalnya, apabila dia membaca Al-quran, timbul pelbagai persoalan..kemudian dia terus membaca dan mendapat jawapanya. Dia berasa sgt kagum bagaimana 'pengarang' Al-quran ini tahu apa yg dipikirkannya ketika itu..
Hayatilah ayat ini:
Tafsiran surah Hud:ayat 14:
Oleh itu, jika mereka (penolong-penolong kamu) tidak dapat melaksanakan permintaan kamu (untuk membuat surah-surah yang sebanding dengan Al-Quran), maka ketahuilah bahawa Al-Quran itu diturunkan hanyalah menurut pengetahuan Allah dan bahawa tidak ada tuhan yang berhak disembah melainkan Allah. Setelah (terbukti hakikat yang demikian) maka adakah kamu mengakui Islam dan menurut aturannya? (14)

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Saya pula suatu ketika berpikir selepas sembahyang tentang keadaan diri..Terpikir bagaimana org lain berusaha membantu rakyat Gaza...Terpikir bagaimana iman mereka yg membantu ini...Terpikir bagaimana pula iman aku....terpikir bagaimana cara terbaik meningkatkan imanku skrang...Allah maha besar...Persoalan yg timbul ini aku temuinya jawapannya tidak lama selepas itu apabila membaca Al-Quran pada ayat ini :
Surah Al-Isra ayat 78-79
Dirikanlah olehmu sembahyang ketika gelincir matahari hingga waktu gelap malam, dan (dirikanlah) sembahyang Subuh sesungguhnya sembahyang Subuh itu adalah disaksikan (keistimewaannya). (78) Dan bangunlah pada sebahagian dari waktu malam serta kerjakanlah sembahyang tahajud padanya, sebagai sembahyang tambahan bagimu; semoga Tuhanmu membangkit dan menempatkanmu pada hari akhirat di tempat yang terpuji. (79)
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Ayat ini mengingatkan aku yang lupa. Sama2 la kita menempatkan diri kita ditempat yg terpuji dgn solat tahajud. Ada juga terbaca suatu artikel nie dimana apabila dikaji org yg solat tahajud selama 3 bulan, imunisasi badanya bertambah (sorry, rujukannya saya tak tahu).
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Sekarang saya nak cuba tido awal, supaya boleh bgn pagi..Tapi biasala kalau dah beranak kecik nie, tido yg lena itu hanya dlm mimpi jek...he..he..Kalau dah mengantuk sgt pagi tu, kadang2 cuba juga utk mandi dulu..Sbb kalau mandi sblm Subuh sebenarnya tak sejuk-->Tips ini saya dpt drpd seorang kawan (dia ada asma). Saya dah cuba tapi sekali dua jek..memang betul tak terasa sejuk sampai mengigil tuh...Di sini atau di Malaysia..Kalau mandi pun tak sejuk, apalagi amik wuduk..Tapi diri ini sering jek lupa.....

Semoga diri ini akan lebih beringat...amin....

Dilema bermain futsal...

2009-01-18T15:37:00.000-08:00

Soalan saya kepada seorang blogger yg juga seorang Dr:

(http://www.blogdokter.net/2007/09/04/15-langkah-menurunkan-berat-badan/comment-page-2/)

Hi,
Terima kasih atas informasi yg sgt bagus…
Saya juga sedang berusaha menjaga kesihatan dan salah satu cara yg saya buat sekarang ialah bermain futsal dengan teman-teman.
Namun saya runsing sbb saya sudah mempunyai dua orang anak dan saya takut jika saya menendang bola dengan kuat ketika bermain futsal akan menganggu peranakan (kedudukan rahim) saya..
Adakah benar yg wanita yg pernah melahirkan anak tidak sesuai bermain aktiviti lasak seperti ini?

Jawapan Dr berkenaan:

@Ifar : Tidak apa apa, asal disesuaikan dengan kemampuan. Saat menendang bola, otot perut ikut konstraksi dan diharapkan otot perut menjadi lebih kuat. Btw, saya juga sedang asyik bermain futsal.

Tambahan maklumat drpd website lain:

http://www.bcsoccer.net/bcsa/PLAYERS/SoccerScience/tabid/114/articleType/ArticleView/articleId/57/Core-ABS.aspx

If you watch a player effortlessly strike a ball and it takes off like a rocket it is presumed the strength of his leg has produced this. In fact he has created this power from the core (abdominal, back muscles, pelvic floor and diaphragm) and pelvic region.

What is the pelvic floor?

http://www.everybody.co.nz/page-5379ba51-d42c-4c2f-b8c9-6af7cbde7e25.aspx

The pelvic floor is the layer of muscle that stretches from your pubic bone in the front to your tail bone at the back, forming the floor of the pelvis. It is the main support structure for the pelvic organs (bladder, uterus, bowel).

Kesimpulan yg saya buat:

Jadi, pada pendapat sayala, jika kita bermain bola, otot disekitar perut dan pelvic mungkin menjadi kuat. Oleh itu, semakin kuatla sokongan terhadap organ2 yang berada dikawasan pelvic termasukla uterus (rahim/peranakan). Saya rasa ini berbeza dgn mengangkat benda berat secara berterusan kerana kita meletakkan beban yg tidak sesuai kepada otot pelvic dan menjadikan ia lemah. Namun, dlm futsal, bola yg disepak merupakan: It is an integrative centre that produces and controls forces and coordinates movement of the upper and lower body (sumber: link bcsoccer). Jadi kita menyepak bola mengikut kekuatan otot kita..Jadi semakin lama bermain, semakin kuat otot kita disebabkan 'konstraksi' pada otot tersebut....Jadi semakin kuatla sokongan pada uterus...

Jadi boleh terus main futsal la kut...eemmm....

Teman2 se'futsal'...

Research, Futsal dan Krismas...

2008-12-26T17:48:00.000-08:00

Phd....

Bicara yg dah ada phd:

"Buat PhD nie takde break...w/pun cuti, tapi pikiran still pikir pasal PhD.Dah antar tesis , dah viva barula cuti yg sebenar2nya"
"In doing PhD, you will have more down moments. It's a very common situation for PhD students"

Ini pulak pelajar yg dah writing stage:

"Dah nak abis dah...tapi data tak ok sgt..kena buat eksperimen balik utk dpt data yg ok"

"Something wrong with the model, I have to validate it again"

Me?

Cuba mencutikan diri tapi asyik pikir research..Mane tak pikir sbb menyedari model yg dibina ada kelemahan..Bila pikir balik, bagus juga tahu awal2 drpd terus 'syok sendiri'....

Lebihkan usaha dan berdoa utk ke tangga kejayaan.....Think positive Naja!

Futsal....

Oleh itu, satu cara utk take a break, hari nie gi main futsal..tak pernah2 main futsal..Dulu main bola kat tepi rumah atuk adala...Itu pun lebih kurang 20 thn yg lepas...
Masa main tadi semput! stamina kurang sgt...Bola pun main sepak jek...he..he...
Takper..bersukan utk kesihatan...

Krismas?

It is a huge celebration here……two weeks of holiday. Although I know about this celebration since I was young, but I really don’t think about it….Just knowing that Christmas is about santa claus, north pole, jesus birth and of course Christmas songs…
But since I was here, I began to see in depth this celebration…
Especially when there was a cristmas tree in my son’s nusery and they learned how to sing Christmas songs (boleh tergugat akidah kalau tgk senikata lagu nie)
And in tv, there are a lot of movies (like The Polar Express and Elf)
that want the children to think that if they do believe in santa, then they will feel and see the existence of santa….
So what the chritsmas is really mean…
Definitions of Chirstmas on the Web:
Christmas is an annual holiday that celebrates the birth of Jesus. It refers to both the day commemorating the birth, and also the Christmastide ...en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chirstmas

And who is santa claus?
Santa Claus: the legendary patron saint of children; an imaginary being who is thought to bring presents to children at Christmas wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
Santa Claus, also known as Saint Nicholas, Father Christmas, Kris Kringle, or simply "Santa", is a historical, legendary, and mythical figure in ...en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Santa
Think the two words: imaginary and mythical.

One day, when I went along a bookshop, there is a book with title: Is Jesus a man or God?

I didn't read the book but here are ayat from Al-Quran related to the question:

Translation for surah AT TAUBAH, Verse 30-35:

[30] The Jews call 'Uzair a son of Allah, and the Christians call Al-Masih the son of Allah. That is a saying from their mouth; (in this) they but imitate what the Unbelievers of old used to say. Allah's curse be on them: how they are deluded away from the Truth!
[31] They take their priests and their anchorites to be their lords in derogation of Allah, and (they take as their Lord) Al-Masih, the son of Maryam; yet they were commanded to worship but One God: there is no god but He. Praise and glory to Him: (far is He) from having the partners they associate (with Him).
32] Fain would they extinguish Allah's Light with their mouths, but Allah will not allow but that His Light should be perfected, even though the Unbelievers may detest (it).
[33] It is He Who hath sent His Messenger with Guidance and the Religion of Truth, to proclaim it over all religion, even though the Pagans may detest (it).
[34] O ye who believe! There are indeed many among the priests and anchorites, who in falsehood devour the substance of men and hinder (them) from the Way of Allah. And there are those who bury gold and silver and spend it not in the Way of Allah: announce unto them a most grievous penalty.
[35] On the Day when heat will be produced out of that (wealth) in the fire of Hell, and with it will be branded their foreheads, their flanks, and their backs, "This is the (treasure) which ye buried for yourselves: taste ye, then, the (treasures) ye buried!"

The translation in Malay:

[30] Dan orang-orang Yahudi berkata: Uzair ialah anak Allah dan orang-orang Nasrani berkata: Al-Masih ialah anak Allah. Demikianlah perkataan mereka dengan mulut mereka sendiri, (iaitu) mereka menyamai perkataan orang-orang kafir dahulu; semoga Allah binasakan mereka. Bagaimanakah mereka boleh berpaling dari kebenaran?
[31] Mereka menjadikan pendeta-pendeta dan ahli-ahli agama mereka sebagai pendidik-pendidik selain dari Allah dan juga (mereka mempertuhankan) Al-Masih Ibni Mariam, padahal mereka tidak diperintahkan melainkan untuk menyembah Tuhan Yang Maha Esa; tiada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Dia. Maha Suci Allah dari apa yang mereka sekutukan.
[32] Mereka hendak memadamkan cahaya Allah (agama Islam) dengan mulut mereka, sedang Allah tidak menghendaki melainkan menyempurnakan cahayaNya, sekalipun orang-orang kafir tidak suka (akan yang demikian).
[33] Dialah yang telah mengutus RasulNya (Muhammad) dengan membawa petunjuk dan agama yang benar (agama Islam), untuk dimenangkan dan ditinggikannya atas segala agama yang lain, walaupun orang-orang musyrik tidak menyukainya.
[34] Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Sesungguhnya banyak di antara pendeta-pendeta dan ahli-ahli agama (Yahudi dan Nasrani) memakan harta orang ramai dengan cara yang salah dan mereka menghalangi (manusia) dari jalan Allah (agama Islam). Dan (ingatlah) orang-orang yang menyimpan emas dan perak serta tidak membelanjakannya pada jalan Allah, maka khabarkanlah kepada mereka dengan (balasan) azab seksa yang tidak terperi sakitnya.
[35] (Iaitu) pada hari dibakar emas perak (dan harta benda) itu dalam Neraka Jahanam, lalu diselar dengannya dahi mereka dan rusuk mereka, serta belakang mereka (sambil dikatakan kepada mereka): Inilah apa yang telah kamu simpan untuk diri kamu sendiri, oleh itu rasalah (azab dari) apa yang kamu simpan itu.

Semoga Allah menetapkan dan menguatkan iman kita...Amin

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Gambar2 permata hatiku..

Adik dah pandai makan guna sudu...tapi tgk2 nanti separuh makanan atas meja

Ikram seronok dpt naik bas....

:)

Presentation lagi...

2008-11-29T13:33:00.000-08:00

Emmm...I think I've made a number of formal presentations since I've been a PhD student...

I took about one month just to prepare a presentation...this was a situation when I was a few months started my PhD..Why I took so long?...

English....yes....english...

When I was a master student, I was still remembered how I just read from my slides during an international conference in KL. The reason was I couldn't elaborate my research in English....

Now I think I can cut the time of preparation to one week..I think now I've started to explain something in English without much preparation.....still not good..but I can see a progress...cai yo cai yo....

Last week, I gave a presentation for Autole 08..a conference for asian top univeristies in engineering.. A lot of engineering students from UoA entered this conference....biasala....supervisor suruh masuk..kenala masuk..dah dean suruh supervisor suruh student masuk....he..he..

But I think there were no students from UM. UM represents Malaysia as a top Uni in Engineering but I didn't see any of their students...emmmmm

I saw some interesting presentations.....

Some were formal (like me)

Some were interactive ( I want like this)

How this presenter can explain his presentation in an interesting way make me feel teruja...

He was talking about parallel computing which I have background about it. When I went to presentations about computer science make me feel 'rindu'...In UKM, at first I was appointed to be a tutor for comp science deparment and the head of deparment at that time wanted me to pursue my study in computer algorithm....yg dengarnya sgt susah....But lastly I'm a tutor in industrial computing department because my master's thesis was more to quality control...Since then, the faculty make a rule that if a student is a computer science student, she must do a thesis in comp science too..not like me...

So here I am .To fullfill a requirement for an expert in real-time process control for my deparment in UKM, I do a research to help process engineers to utilize past data to detect future abrnormalities in aluminium processing in real time. Hope I can use this technique to other processess too...

But to be a PhD student in engineering give me a new experience...But sometimes it's quite difficult to answer a question like "Is it difficult to be a woman engineer?" How I know because I'm not an engineer..he..he....tak terexplain yg kita nie tahu engineering sikit2 jek...

Now, I'm waiting a response from a process engineer yg mintak2 dilembutkan hatinya utk membantu dari segi data....tolongla saya..tolongla saya.....kalau pikir2 balik..mcm win-win situation..kita tolong kaji data dia, dia cuma bagi data....data yg dah lepas pulak tuh..data yang mereka akan delete pun..jadi...tolongla saya bagi data tuh..kalaula dia paham..emm....

Akhir kata, saya 'present'kan gambar2 terkini Nadhirah yg melaram pakai spek besar (spek yg hayatnyer telah tamat sekarang.)

Dakwah

2008-10-28T22:04:00.000-07:00

After a few situations, I think I should seriously look at dakwah..
"9/11...it's a controversial date"...I just said eem....and smile...(because in my mind, I was hardly think on what should I said but nothing was coming out)
"Hari raya is a day after Ramadhan"..ooo so you're happy that the fasting month is finally finish..
I said yes...emm..when I think it again, my answer is like I'm so happy because I dont have to fasting ...ish...ish..I should said that I'm so happy to get the opportunity to be in Ramadhan..ish..ish...

I've just realised to have knowledge about giving dakwah to prepare myself in the future..especially living in non-muslim country....
And I think articles from http://islamtomorrow.com/articles/ are very good to get important knowledge in answering those 'questions'.

One of the articles :
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Bismillah Rahman Raheem
May Allah guide all of us to His Truth, ameen
"Harsh Questions Help Newcomers to Islam!" - Yusuf EstesMuslim Institutional Chaplain
Salam alaykum:
Something amazing has been happening with our dawah project. We can't believe it. Allah has Blessed us so much to be successful in our latest project for spreading Islam to the non-Muslims. They are actually coming to attack us, and then - all of a sudden they are making the shahadah and entering into Islam.
I call the project, "Answering the Harsh Questions Against Islam."
People everywhere are saying and asking horrible things like:
* Allah
* Quran
* Muhammad, peace be upon him
* Women's Rights
* 4 Wives for men - but only 1 for the women
* Marriage to 9 year old girl
* Terrorism
* Suicide Bombers
All of these questions and more have been coming to us in email and in the streets and over the phone on a daily basis.
So, I took it upon myself to bring about the common sense answers for these questions in plain and simple English language based on the teachings of the Quran and the Sunnah (way or teachings of Muhammad, peace be upon him). And it is working. This is actually helping the Muslims to do the correct dawah. Allah has almost definitely caused us to get involved to promote the true message of Islam on the same methodology as that of the prophet, peace be upon him.
Examples of Harsh Questions - That Helped Them Become Muslims After Attacking Islam:
In London Ontario, Canada a young man stood up after my talk in a masjid, dealing with the harsh questions. He asked, "Why do you pray to a black box in the desert?" -->read more at
http://www.islamtomorrow.com/articles/harsh_questions.htm

Besday Ikram and Netball

2008-10-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

-->Happy birthday Ikram :) 10/10/2008

Ikram dan train..

Ikram dan coklat..

Ikran dan senyuman..

Ikram now is 4 years old..A big boy...in his childhood centre..he is known as Train boy..always talk about train, play with train and draw trains. Even his teacher asked him to draw trains for his friend......

Semoga menjadi anak yg soleh ye ...;)

-->Netball

Although i didn't have enough sleep at night because Nadhirah got fever, I still had enough strength to walk to the sport centre in the city to play netball..aik anak demam pun tinggal ke?...he..he..

Actually, it was like a time out for me....I need a fresh body and mind to face my sick daughter and my PhD (sbb dah 4 hari buat cuti2 sendiri..).....Terasa masa main netball, stamina punyala kurang....teringat pulak masa main persahabatan gan polis wanita..dah berusia...tapi relak jek..kalah teruk team saya....w/pun dah berlatih berbulan2..berbagai2 strategi dah belajar..tapi bila jumpa polis..jadi kelam kabut.....maklumla masa tuh budak 12 thn jumpa dewasa antara 20-40..mahu nye tak gelabah....:).....

Last sekali, tgkla gambar adik yg dah mula pandai bergaya..team netball hari tuh dan jalan2 ketika org lain sibuk kat opis..he..he...

Adik pakai baju mak ke?
Time out utk mak...Netball
Cuti2 sendiri....

Resipi agar-agar roti...

2008-10-15T20:33:00.000-07:00

In this post I would to share a recipe for agar-agar roti.
I got this recipe from My Resipi http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/4608

I just copy and paste the recipe here and only add some information.

Bahan-bahan ( 12 biji acuan pudding )
4 keping roti
2 biji telur
1/2 cawan susu pekat
1 tin susu cair (170ml)
8gram serbuk agar2
1/2 cawan gula - bleh kurangkn
2 sudu besar butter/marjerin (cairkan)
31/2 cawan air

Cara-cara
1) Didihkan air,serbuk agar2 n gula ke dalam periuk.
2) Blend roti,telur,susu pekat n susu cair. Kemudian masukkan dalam periuk agar2 yg sudah didih td.
3) Masukkan butter/marjerin dan kacau rata sampai agak2 pekat.
4) Tuang dalam acuan. Bleh la letak pewarna apa2 kat atas tuh dan lorek2kan dgn lidi.
5) Masukkan peti ais beberapa minit sebelum mkn...dah siap...
6) SeLaMat MeNcUbe....

------My comments-------

0) Senang, cepat dan boleh buat ikut citarasa sendiri..Cth agar2 roti org buat..amik kat My Resipi

1) If you see the original post in My Resipi, they use the original colour for the agar2 powder. But I used red colour (tak perasan pun masa beli tuh). So the output is pink (merah campur putih susu)..I think it's ok because I don't have to put 'pewarna' because the look was just nice..mcm warna sirap bandung.

2) I used 7 gram agar-agar powder as every one packet of the swallow agar2 powder (picture 1) contains approximately 7gram. It turned out to be just ok. Boleh dipotong dan dipegang. Tapi agak susah la pulak nak carik agar2 powder jenama nie atau jenama2 lain. Terlepas pandang atau memang tak ada kat kedai2 yg biasa pergi (foodtown, tai ping, lim chour). Kalau ada sesiapa terjumpa kat kedai2 tersebut atau kedai yg boleh dipergi dgn jalan kaki atau naik bas, silala beritahu ye...

3) Dalam langkah ke-3 iaitu tunggu sehingga agak2 pekat, memang subjektif sikit. Cuma pd pendapat saya, campuran tuh mula pekat sikit bila telur yg dimasukkan dah mula nak masak..Jadik bila rasa telur semua dah masak, kira okayla kepekatan tuh..bolehla diangkat..Masa nak tunggu pekat pun tak lama..sbb bukan nak tunggu sampai likat (mcm puding jagung)..cuma pekat...mungkin dlm 15-20 minit...tak tgk jamla pulak masa tuh..tapi kejap jek

4) Kalau guna bekas besar, lambatla sikit nak beku..dlm 2-3 jam jugak...jadi kalau nak cepat makan, gunala bekas2 comel mcm dlm My Resipi tuh..cepat sejuk kut..dan comel...

Akhir kata, sesiapa yg gemar agar2 kentang pasti mengemari agar2 roti nie sbb rasanyer lemak dan manis..

Selamat mencuba dr saya (terutama utk my neighbour..he..he...)

Picture 1-->

http://swallow-globe.com.au/eshop/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=14

Lebaran Ini 2008

2008-10-05T20:45:00.000-07:00

Lebaran ini..

Kerinduan masakan mak terubat jugak bila makan nasi himpit gan rendang yg mak buat dan pos dr M'sia..
* Rendang kegemaran..Thank you mak!

kalau org johor, nasi himpit tak sah kalau tak sklai gan sayur lodeh..

Memandangkan tauhu dan tempe ada jual kat Foodtown (baru perasan baru2 nie). W/pun mahal sikit, sayur lodeh punya pasal, takper..

So..bgn kul 4.00 utk masak...jeng jeng..jadila sayur lodeh..he..he..

*Sayur lodeh..

suami kata mcm mak masak..ish..ish..harunya..suami kalau dia kritik makanan memang honest..kalau tak sedap..memang tak sedapla....dia akan beritahu apa yg kurang..tapi kalau sedap dan dia puji...memang banggala sbb memang sedap betul..he..he

boleh jadik food kritik dia nie...

Sayur lodeh mak memang sedap..Mana taknyer..resipi atuk nie...ikutje la satu2..mesti jadik...

Siap masak agar2 roti....dah jadi fav pulak la skrang..tak yah guna oven dan muai..byk dpt....dan rasanyer memang saya dan anak beranak suka..tapi agar2 powder nie susahnyer nak dpt..hari tuh gi beli kat kedai Toupu (betul ke eja?) kat Albany...singgah kejap lps belajar buat nasi tomato dulu

Dah cari agar2 powder kat lim chour, tai ping dan foodtown..tapi takde plak..ish..ish..

*Agar-agar roti

So raya pertama lebih kepada mendengar takbir dirumah kerana suami penat sgt kerja semalam. Sayur lodeh dan agar-agar roti yg dah masak lebih simpan dlm peti jek..

Tapi hari kedua dpt gak beraya....bestnyer..

Gi umah yg nampak train nie, memang Ikram enjoy la...

Nadhirah pun seronok...dah tak takut org dah..tak yah warming up....agaknyer dah besar kut..dah setahun dah...

*Adik melaram gan spek mata itam

Dan semalam...Mapsa punya jamuan raya...

Mcm2 makan..tapi terlepas nak makan sayur lodeh dan nasi hijau tuh..sbb dah kenyang sgt dah...tapi semua makanan sedap2 berlaka...Ikram dan Nadhirah dok makan muffin jek..

Gambar2 nie dptla gambarkan keadaan jamuan semalam...Alhamudulillah..Ikram tak susah sgt nak control..Nadhirah pun relax jek...

*Celebriti karpet merah ??

*Abg nampak letih
*Adik pun letih gak ye.

Apa yg penting lebaran ini, kita dpt mengukuhkan silaturrahim..

Semoga diri ini sentiasa beringat utk istiqamah dlm segala amalan yg dilakukan....

Ucapan selamat..

2008-09-27T16:04:00.000-07:00

One day in Ramadhan:
*: "Salam..Taqabbalahhu minna wa minkum"...
#: Blur kejap..
*: "Oh in Iraq, when we meet each other in Ramadhan we said Taqabbalahhu minna wa minkum. It means : Semoga Allah menerima amalan ( amalan dan ibadat di Ramadhan) kami dan kamu (tapi dia sebut dlm english la)...
#: "ooooo"....
Then today I read this from http://www.zaharuddin.net/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=612&Itemid=72 dan antara isinya:
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4) Mengucapkan selamat dan mendoakan antara satu sama lain ;
Tiada masalah untuk menggunakan apa jua kalimah, asalkan ianya mempunyai maksud yang sama. Bagaimanapun, kalimah yang digunakan di zaman baginda SAW adalah "Taqabbalahhu minna wa minkum" ertinya : Semoga Allah menerima amalan ( amalan dan ibadat di Ramadhan) kami dan kamu".
Disebut dalam sebuah riwayat :
قال واثلة لقيت رسول الله يوم عيد فقلت تقبل الله منا ومنك قال نعم تقبل الله منا ومنك
Ertinya : Berkata Wathilah, Aku bertemu Rasulullah s.a.w pada hari raya dan aku katakan pada baginda "taqabballahu minna wa minka", baginda menjawab : Ya, taqabballahu minna wa minka" ( Al-Baihaqi, rujuk perbincangan di Fath Al-Bari, 2/446 )
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Oooo baru tahu..Sblm nie tak tahu...byk lagi nak kena belajar nie..

Syawal..
Kini
Kehadiran Syawal semakin dirasai..
Namun kehadirannya bermakna perginya Ramadhan..
Adakah aku bergembira menyambut Syawal tahun ini?
Ya, aku pasti gembira kerana berpeluang merasai bulan Ramadhan sblmnya..
Tahap kegembiraan ku pasti lagi tinggi
jika pengabdianku dan amalanku padaNya meningkat di bulan Ramadhan
jika visi dan rutin hidupku berubah ke arah penghayatan Islam yang optimum..
Ya, apakah tahap kegembiraan ku pada Syawal kali ni..?
Apa yg pasti aku pasti merindukan Ramadhan..
dan mengharapkan kegembiraan yang berganda pada Syawal akan datang..sebagai tanda aku telah membenarkan pernyataan jika di atas..
Ya Allah ampunilah dosaku..
Ya Allah terimalah amalanku dibulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini....

Najah
28/9/2008

One year old - Nadhirah (5th September 2008)

2008-09-18T14:22:00.000-07:00

We're presenting........

......Nur Nadhirah Nabihah Mohammed Reza..........

The journey began 2007....

Four months before Nadhirah was born, we safely arrived at Auckland. We received wonderful help from Mohammed Minhat's family and lunch was provided by Kak Yati's family.

Then, with Kayron's help, we managed to open a bank account and the best thing was my supervisor met my family after that. I think from that meeting my supervisor started to know that I was pregnant.

When I know I was pregnant, of course I was very happy. But in my mind, there were thousands of questions keep coming to me.

Should I go to Auckland after giving birth?How much does it cost? Does it affect my study?

Some stories and advises that I got :

"During our time, the cost was free" (before 2003)

"My friend who was just giving birth also get free maternity services" ( I think she was under NZ's grant or she started before 2003)

"When I was doing PhD, my supervisor said that you should avoid to get pregnant" (But I was already pregnant when she told me her story and was facing the morning sickness)

Then I asked a doctor

"Doctor, could you please check me weather I get Placenta Previa (uri bawah)"

"It's too early to check that"

" But I really want to know as I got Placenta Previa during my first child. I will further my study soon and I want to calculate the cost"

"My friend who was in Autralia, her maternity cost was covered by insurance"

"But Dr, I'm going to NZ, and they said it was not covered by insurance :("

The good news was my plancenta was at a right position...

So we decided to go to Auckland and giving birth there..

The changes of immigration's policy give more benefit to PhD student as they get domestic fee (that's why elaun naik 100% tuh I think) and their partner will get a working permit. So for my understanding, if you've two years working permit, you're entitled for free maternity services. But for student? You've to pay....ada pro and con laa....

To make the story short :

If you choose home birth, the cost will be much less..

If you choose auckland city hospital, the cost is about 3,600 (including tax)
If you choose other places than auckland city hospital for giving birth, the cost might below 3,000 but if you've complication, they will still send you to auckland city hospital and of course the cost might be higher..

(the cost migh be changed now)

So we choosed auckland city hospital and we also choosed not to stay there after giving birth. It means, after 4 hours from giving birth, we should arrange to go home. Otherwise I might have to pay another 300 for staying in the ward.

Before the 4 hours ended, I didnt have enough energy to get up from bed (byk darah kuar kut) but a nurse asked me to clean up myself (signal bersiap utk balik kut..he..he...). With the help from my husband, I went to a bathroom which was just inside the labour room. Then, I think, why not mandi wiladah (mandi slps melahirkan) terus. Suddenly, I got a huge source of energy after taking the bath (patutla kena mandi wiladah nie, segar) but the nurse keep asking me, " are you ok?"....dia risau sbb sblm masuk toilet mcm tak larat jek....

The first week of pantang we got delicous food from akma, kak yati, kak zakiah, ijah & makcik dan Fariza..Terima kasih la byk2...tak lupa juga Nadhirah's clothes..comei2 baju yg dibagi..

Aduhai..puteriku sayang.....itu kenangan lama...saja nak berkongsi pengalaman..anugerah tuhan nie sebenarnya tak ternilai harganya......satu amanat ...satu tanggungjawab....Semoga menjadi anak solehah ye....:)

Mak nie menulis blog pulak pagi2 nie..bukan apa, carik mood utk buat keje..(boleh mcm tuh?)..berjujuk keje nak kena buat...satu-satu dtg..apa2 hal pun stay calm..he..he...apa nak masak mlm nie..ishh nak nengok resipi pulak..bila nak start keje nie....:)

Wajah2 terkini adik:

Alaa..tertutup pulak mata adik nie...

Seronok betul ye adik....

Lagi aksi pakai tudung..

Inilah besday kek saya....made in Foodtown..belum apa2 abg Ikram dah serbu dulu..tak sampai braper minit adik (tgn yg bawah) dan abg (tgn yg atas) dah mengabiskan coklat2 kat atas tuh..kejap jek lawa kek tuh...

Apapun adik, Happy birthday to you!!!!

Motivasi

2008-09-16T13:50:00.000-07:00

How to stay motivated?

I'm now in the mid phase of my PhD. Lately, I'm having lack of motivation so that I've been searching from the internet to look for some sources that can increase my motivation.

#First, I found this from http://www.zaharuddin.net/:

"Kita semua perlukan motivasi, motivasi yang unggul adalah motivasi untuk mendapatkan redha dan syurga Allah.
Sebagaimana nabi dan sahabat baginda. Allah s.w.t mencatatkan betapa bermotivasinya mereka mengejar keredhaan dan syurga Allah dengan firmannya :-
خِتَامُهُ مِسْكٌ وَفِي ذَلِكَ فَلْيَتَنَافَسِ الْمُتَنَافِسُونَ
Ertinya : "tempat penamat yang harum semerbak kesturi (syurga); dan untuk yang demikian itu hendaknya orang berlomba-lomba" ( Al-Mutaffifin :26 )

Jadilah dan kejarlah redha dan pahala untuk kehidupan selepas kematian. Rancanglah dan fikirlah.
Jangan jadikan pujian manusia sebagai motivasi unggul kerana ia akan mencelamu dikemudian hari.
Jangan jadikan duit sebagai motivasi unggul kerana ia akan hilang dan habis.
Jangan jadikan pangkat sebagai motivasi unggul, kerana ia juga akan tamat dan dihasadi.
Jangan jadikan keluarga sebagai motivasi unggul, kerana ia akan mati jua.
JADIKAN ALLAH, RASULNYA DAN SYURGA YANG DIJANJIKANNYA SEBAGAI MOTIVASI, NESCAYA ALLAH TIDAK AKAN MATI DAN JANJINYA TIDAK AKAN MENGECEWAKAN.

Membiarkan orang lain sahaja yang bermotivasi dalam memperolehi pahala bukanlah sifat orang beriman. Jangan biarkan kata-kata negatif orang terhadap sesuatu yang baik untuk akhirat anda, membantutkan semangat. Jadikan ia pendorong dan motivasi "

Read the full article at http://www.zaharuddin.net/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=618&Itemid=72

#The Second source is more specific to PhD students (the full article is at http://www.pgoracle.uea.ac.uk/node/155):

The seven secrets of highly successful PhD students*
Researchers who know and make use of these seven secrets get through their doctorate more quickly, and just as importantly are happier, according to the Staff Development and Training Unit, Flinders University, Australia.

1. Care and maintenance of your supervisors

2. Write and show as you go: This is show and tell, not hide and seek

3. Be realistic: It's not a Nobel Prize

4. Say no to distractions: Even the fun ones and the ones you think you must do

5. It's a job: That means working nine to five but you get holidays

6. Get help: You are not an owner-operator single person business

7. You can do it: A PhD is about intelligence and persistence

I've read the full articles for both sources and YUP...I'm more motivated now :))

Next post: Nadhirah's birthday

Macam-macam

2008-08-31T01:22:00.000-07:00

In this post I would like to talk about many things..

Firstly..Nadhirah...got fever...and now rashes..may be it is an allergic reaction..I still have to figure out what was the cause...so sad to see her so quiet, weak and cry frequently...One night, she woke-up many times because she felt uncomfortable. Then the next day, I struggled with editing my report. It was so hectic and full of tension to be in this situation. What a pity for Ikram because he had to face this situation...sabar ye...utk mak dan anak sekali...Thanks to my husband for helping me in this situation..

Secondly..PhD...I'm now entering my first 6 months for my second year..slow progress...why? because the direction of my research is not very clear..I got some data but it didn't work with the proposed method...a few weeks with full of trying...I tried and tried again...but...no positive results...very frustrated..very....But at one time...after discussing with one of my group member, I suddenly got some idea (Alhamdulillah)...why not try like this...and it did show something.....I make a report and sent it to my supervisors. After editing the report based on my supervisors' comments (during Nadhirah was sick), I sent the report to process engineers.. and now I'm in a waiting moment...Do they like the idea...does the idea work? Hopefully, they will give a positive response so that I can go on to validate the idea...Positive response means the direction of my research is clearer and many things is awaiting for me to do after that.. I must be very very busy....Doakanla berjaya....

Thirdly..fasting..last year I was not fasting...Got a baby a few days before Ramadhan..Nur Nadhirah Nabihah...This year..yup! fasting...Hopefully my fasting will be up to one level..this level hopefully:
Puasa paling istimewa, menurut Imam al-Ghazali, iaitu puasa yang ditambah lagi dengan puasa hati daripada semua keinginan yang rendah dan fikiran keduniaan. Inilah puasa yang paling tinggi darjatnya dan puasa semacam inilah yang dikehendaki Allah, BeritaHarianOnline.

Fourthly..Bread pudding...My favourite...if there is bread..90% there will be bread pudding..

So today is the latest version..put some cashews..

Nadhirah was looking at the bread pudding...she has just relieved from a fever teething (I think)..Now, she has had rashes...Get well soon adik...Miss your keletah..

Lastly...Selamat Berpuasa semua !!!!

Poster dan gigi

2008-08-23T22:26:00.000-07:00

What is the relationship between poster and teeth?
Well they are the topics that I would like to talk about in this post:
My posters and My daughter's first tooth..

-Engineering Postgraduate Poster Competition 2008

One of the main reasons I entered this competition is that to visualize my research.
A Prof said during a prize giving ceremony for the competition:
" Poster is a brief description of your research"

Another Prof said:
"Try to balance between figures and words..
Do not use small fonts...sometimes it is very hard to read..
Use a good combination of colour"
This is general advice that I got after the competition.

Before the competition I went to course about:
"How to make a good academic poster" at SLC.
It was a very good course as the facilitator showed me some examples of good and bad posters.
After went through some editing processes based on comments from my husband (thanks cunyu!) and also my supervisor, here is the result:

(click to enlarge)

It was not really an artistic work. It was just a poster that I want the audience could understand the main idea of my research. I think I know what make other posters were better than me. They visualized every sections of the poster. I only put more focus on the result section. I should try to visualize other sections as well.

When the mood of making poster was still there, I was thinking to submit a poster for auis poster competition for Ramadhan. I had started to collect information even from journals from science direct. I'd found journals about effect of Ramadhan for smokers, for diabetes, for sportsman etc...Then I remembered some info from an Ustaz who said that Ramadhan is a month of changing ourself. 30 days of fasting and doing only good things are actually the best way to change our 'tabiat'. Tabiat is not easy to change but with 30 days of training, it is possible for us to stay in a way that we want to change. A good training too for smokers. I forgot the source of the info but I used the concept of transformation in my poster. However, as the info must be accurate, I couldn't finish the poster with so limited time. So this was the result on the due date (15/8):

:) tak sempatla...tu jek yg mampu...

-Gigi saya

Now, My daughter's teeth.....
After waiting so long (when Nadhirah nearly one year), finally her teeth have come out...
Can you see them? Have a look...:)

(click to enlarge)
Tengokla..saya dah ada gigi..:)

Happy Birthday to ME!!

2008-08-15T13:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my birthday...

The day when a cute baby (perasan jek) was born 29 years ago..at my atok's house in Pontian.

On this day, my elder brother (4 years old) got his first naughty sister with so much desire and thinking.

We did a lot of activities together since my younger brother was born 4 years later.

Since my parent's house was built in front of my atok's house when I was 9 years old, we used to play many kampung and non-kampung's games with our cousins like:

teng teng

Belon acah

polis polis

rounders (used tiang katil and bola tenis ayah)

football (satu pasukan gan abg)

Badminton (siap ada liga lagi)

getah

.......etc lupa dah nama...

Well, it was before my brother went to a boarding school (MCKK) and since then the liga for badminton was not really work as my brother was the mastermind.

How about schools?

Sek Tengku Mahmood Iskandar (II) was my primary school. This school is quite popular not only because of the name (using kerabat diraja name) but also its performance. Well, I quite active in sports (netball, volleyball, bola baling ) like my father and netball is my favourite sports until now. Our school was netball's champion for ten consecutive years (if I'm not mistaken) during that time.

Well, moved to kampung also make me moved to a nearer school which was sek men ren kayu ara pasong, Pontian. My father was also a teacher there. Less active in sports make me bigger than before. One acitivity which I do remember until now was a story telling competition (in BM). I represented my school with title "Puteri raja berkahwin dgn labi-labi" he..he..Until now I still remember accurately the story.

........Time goes by...and now I've already had two little children. Mcm tak percaya dah jadik mak orang....lagi tak percaya tgh buat PhD.... PhD nie kadang2 membuatkan mak orang nie rasa nak balik zaman kanak2 dulu...ingat main dan main jek..he..he...

Well, hopefully this year, saya akan lebih menyayangi diri saya, keluarga dan sekeliling. Sayang for me means if I do sayang myself, I should fulfill my rights like do anything because of Allah. I should fulfill my resposibilities as a wife and a mother if I do sayang my husband and my children. Hopefully, all the sayang that we give to others will make us lebih disayangi-Nya..InsyaAllah.

Pictures of Ikram and Nadhirah...

1) Saya tgh makan..yum ..yum..

2) Saya suka senyumla.....;)
3) Ikram dan wool adiknya..
Happy birthday mak...

How was Malaysia?

2008-06-23T18:46:00.000-07:00

Apa khabar org kampung?

Ikram has been thinking about cik su, mimi tok, atoks etc. since we were here..sian dia..
Two weeks in Pontian, Johor and two weeks in USJ, Subang gave opportunities to Ikram and Nadhirah to know their family.

Pic 1: Ikram melihat2 kapal terbang sblm pulang ke Malaysia

Nadhirah..first time met her relatives. Cried very loud at first but few days later, she always smiles, smiles and smiles…

Pic 2: Nadhirah with her father while waiting for departure

The food was GOOD although the price is going up…
The weather was also good, not too hot.
The conference was also OK. Had a chance to meet a lecturer that gave an idea about what I should do about my research after finishing my PhD.

What else? Oil prices…had a chance to queue up in a long line before 12.00 a.m. and we asked for a full tank. There were a lot of people and we even saw a situation where a Kancil’s driver filled diesel instead of petrol, so the driver have to suck out the diesel from his kancil.
All in all, hujan emas dinegeri org, hujan batu dinegeri sendiri, baik lagi negeri sendiri. We’re HOMESICK!!!!

PhD?
I’ve started my second year in Malaysia..he..he..
Not fully holiday in Malaysia because the first two weeks I did some data analysis to an Industry and the work is still going on. A statement from my co-supervisor’s email to the industry’s people, “Nazatul is on holiday, but…..”….Kena kuatkan semangat betul utk buat keje…
Few days before coming back to NZ, I received an email from my supervisor that told me a few things that I should do. For my own benefit actually..However, a first week here, I used only 20% or 10% of my time for doing research…Help me!!!

Good to be back to Malaysia. Wish to see all of you again. May be in NZ? Dtgler NZ..holiday..:)

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More pictures:
Nadhirah with her mak sepupu, cik Effa

Nadhirah and Ikram with their Tok Ayah

Nadhirah with her Mami tok, Cik Sha and Cik Su

Ikram and Nadhirah with Ayah Jih

Nadhirah was playing with her sepupu, Nazif

Nadhirah with mak Nor and mak Faizah. Thanks to my sister, faizah and my mother (not in the pic, how come?) for taking care Nadhirah while I was attending the conference.

Nadhirah and her mother during majlis pertunangan her uncle, pak Udin....Tahniah pak Udin !!

Mother's day..

2008-05-12T04:21:00.001-07:00

Mother...

at 25 years old I started to be a mother..and having two little children now seems a very big responsibility to be carried out.

When I was doing my master degree, I saw my friend who was strunggling to manage her time between revising for an examination and taking care her little children.

I have no idea how difficult it was.

and now I know..

Hanya kepada-Nya la aku memohon pertolongan..hanya kepadaNya..memang hanya kepadaNya...

Seperti nasihat seorang lecturer seblm saya membuat PhD" buatla solat hajat byk2..memang kita tak mampu tanpa pertolonganNya"

Alhamdulillah...segala2 nya dgn pertolongan Allah s.w.t.

Wajah2 yg tercinta -->

:) Senyum seindah suria..penyejuk hati ibu...wajah2 yg tercinta di Malaysia akan kutatapi jua akhir minggu ini....rindunyer........

Anak ayah nie..

2008-04-19T03:53:00.000-07:00

From birth until now, I always look at my daughter face. I think her face follows my husband's face. Her eyes, nose and mouth are really similar with my husband...

'Anak ayah nie'..he..he..he..

Semoga menjadi anak solehah ye...

All about Nadhirah...

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Adik dah pandai duduk..:)

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Adik dan abang, teman sepermainan..

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Adik, senyum dik...tapi adik lebih berminat gan kamera

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Ish..ish..ish

Geramnyer gan kamera nie

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Usaha tangga kejayaan..adik melangkah..silap..merangkak utk mendptkan kamera...

Akhirnya, adik dpt jugak..tapi gambar tak upload sbb blur..dekat sgt....

Itulah Nadhirah...ajjah..attah...uppah...attah...sibuk bercakap skrang..:)

Sehari bersama Ikram

2008-03-27T01:23:00.000-07:00

What is your name?
Ikram!
How old are you?
Three years old..
Where do you live?
I live at 'odge' Auckland!
Siri jawapan Ikram kalau ditanya soalan2 tersebut...
Lagu kegemaran Ikram ?
My mother..who next my mother..who next my mother..and then my father....
satu lagi..
Bismillah..Alhamdulillah....
satu lagi
alif diatas aa, ba di atas aa, ta diatas aa...semua bunyi aaa

Pukul satu tghhari..
Sekarang Ikram sudah bersiap sedia gi 'school'..

Saya dah sampai dah...seronoknye!!!

Pusing kanan

Pusing kiri

Emm..mcm menarik pulak kat sana
Main air dulu la...

Pas tuh..main pasir pulak...Mane tak seronok gi 'school' nie

Pukul 4.00 ptg...bila sampai, Ikram dah duduk dalam..tgh kusyuk main lego

Buat 'house' ke?
Jom balik..pakai sandle...jln dlm 15-20 minit..
dah sampai dah umah...

Apalagi ...sambung main la..kali nie buat 'train' atau 'bus'..

Nie apa nie? 'Train'.....panjangnyer....

Nak main sama? Jom la....

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Inilah post mengenai 'sehari bersama Ikram'

Dikala sibuk2 tahap maksima nie, sempat lagi mencelah tulis blog..release tension......

Lps nie sehari bersama Nadhirah pulak :)

Adik (Ikram's sister)

2008-03-07T02:06:00.000-08:00

Adik...

She starts to eat now..

Adik..

love playing with her brother, Ikram

Adik..

I love u so much...

When I was pregnant,

you give me a lot of strength,

I become so ambitious in doing my PhD.

And now,

although I have more responsibility,

as long as you're there,

I still can move on...

with different approach, different time mangement and different situation...

Hopefully, adik, I can still give you the best that I can as a mother.

Love

2008-02-07T21:48:00.000-08:00

I like to watch a cerekarama with title 'Kalam Cinta Rabiah'. My husband downloaded the cerekarama so I can watch it in NZ..ye haa....thanks cunyu..

and I love this quote:

A magnificent love makes a magnificent human being –Kalam Cinta Rabiah

All about love:

4/2/2007 was my husband birthday..I will create a special post about him..

9/2/2007 -Nadhirah now is 5 months old...

Ikram? Always asks "What's that!!!????"..Jenuh gak nak jawab...

and also my family in m'sia..rindunyer...

Me? In the middle of analysing, writing, improving,updating..more and more verbs with ing..

Hopefully the love I get will make me a magnificient woman...:)

cai yo cai yo..

New year's Resolution: 2008

2008-01-18T13:03:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I went to a course, New year's resolution regarding your thesis:2008 and there was a question:
Rate your thesis productivity for the year 2007 on a scale 1-7...
My answer is: unable to answer..he..he..but hopefully this year, 2008, the rate is 7, very productive.

A list of things to do this year:

Thesis (before March, hopefully)
-complete a fully developed research proposal: a schedule of research, an outline of the thesis stucture and a statement of the recources required to complete the research but do I achive the provisional goals?

-make my own programming to analyse the data using Matlab (berangan dulu la) because at the moment I've been using other researher's programme.

English
- Go to ELSAC next week to join my group in improving English. My group has set some dates so that we can go to ELSAC as a group. I have been to ELSAC individually but I think to be in the group is better because I can get more motivated.

Socialize in the group
- Try to get involve with the group's activities. I really have to enhance my communication skills in English (picture below is the group).

Family

Hopefully I can manage my time wisely. I want to be a good mother, a good wife and a good daughter. Always pray to be ' Ibu, Isteri dan Anak solelah'.
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Therefore I must work smart to achive all my goals..
Doa2 kan la provisional year nie lepas...:)
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Some of my pictures with my children while waiting for a train.

Satu Muharram detik permulaa..permulaan thn Islam...

2008-01-10T12:59:00.000-08:00

Hijrah...Perpindahan nabi dan umat Islam..
dr kota Mekah ke Kota Madinah..
Atas keyakinan dan iman yg teguh...

Keep singging this song during Maal Hijrah...and a compulsory song for a nasyid competition during my primary school (maleh nak citer..sbb kalah).

1429 ..New year should come with a new resolution...
But..so many things to do and I feel like to 'demam' today. Headache with stars around me..
not 'winkel winkle litel star' like Ikram always sing..

So here I am, end up with writing this blog..
btw ema and zaidah are moving today, until this moment still thinking to 'jenguk' or not.
may be wait until the stars around me dissapear..

So today I would like to write about my mum who her birthday is on the 3rd January.

MuM,
engkaulah ratu hatiku....
Who is my mum?
A good Mother, of course, who give me her truly love and I can always feel it in the deep of my heart. This love make me stronger and confidence to face any difficulties in my life...
Who is my mum?
A good teaher, of course, who teach me how to survive in this temporary life.. She sometimes said to me "use your common sense". yes, not all things should be told how to do...especially during cooking.." Mak, bawang ni nak potong camner..sayur nie dh masak ke belum" he..he..
and during PhD, can I work independently?
My mother was also a teacher in her real life..taught science and BM. In one night before PMR, my mum asked me some science questions that should be answered orally. It was really helpful, thanks mum.
Who is my mum?
A good writer, of course, a teacher must be good in writing especially to write the teaching plan. My mum really has this skill, may be inheritanced from my grandfather who was also a teacher. My grandfather had won a considolation prize for short stories competition organized by dewan bahasa dan pustaka (DBP). My mum told me to write a short sentence instead of a long long sentence like "Masa itu emas.",the first sentence of my mum's essay during MCE. After MCE, my mum also got an offer to write a textbook. Hopefully, I have this skill too. I really need it escpecially for my PhD....May be I have it but I don't realise it ( nak sejukkan hati..he..he..)
Who is my mum?
A mum who can speak and write in English, of course, because my mum got her education in an English school. Then further her studies in 'Maktab perguruan' where she met my father..he..he..(my father was also a teacher, therefore, I was born to be a teacher!!).
Hopefully, my english is good too..or must good.

All in all, mum, you are the BEST....

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p/s: Faizah, pls print and gave it to Mak..tq.

Ikram's family

2007-12-20T01:49:00.000-08:00

Allah says in surah Ar-Rum ayat 21:

Which means: And among His signs is that He created for you wives from among yourselves that you may find peace in them and He has put between you affection and mercy. Verily in that are indeed signs for a people who reflect.

"Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaan-Nya telah diciptakan-Nya untukmu pasangan dari jenismu sendiri supaya kamu mendapat ketenangan hati dan dijadikan-Nya kasih sayang di antara kamu. Sesungguhnya yang demikian itu menjadi tanda-tanda kebesaran-Nya bagi orang-orang yang berfikir"

Alhamdulillah 21/12/2007 genapla empat thn kami mendirikan rumahtangga...

Semuanyer bermula ketika kami sama2 belajar dalam bidang sains komputer (TK), fakulti teknologi dan sains maklumat (FTSM), UKM, batch 1999/2001.

Kini, alhamdulillah, kami dikurniakan sepasang cahaya mata:

Muhammad Ikram Mohammed Reza (3 thn) 10/10/2004: Hospital Sultanah Aminah, JB

Nur Nadhirah Nabihah Mohammed Reza (3 bulan) 5/9/2007: Auckland City Hospital.

Semoga segalanyer diberkati Allah s.w.t...amin..

Wellington..here we come..

2007-11-08T19:23:00.000-08:00

Post ini ditulis pada 1 Nov..cuma hari nie cut and paste kat blog..sbb masa tuh suami tgh guna internet...

1 NOV 2007 back from maternity leave… start keje dah…
Keje apa lagik…mengkaji benda2 yg belum dikaji…….2 bln duk umah..2 bln la tak tgk research..
Tapi supervisor kata ada buruk dan baiknyer sbnrnyer..
Sbb nanti bila balik lps cuti bersalin, I will look again my research in a new prespective..
Emm.betulla apa dia ckp.kalau sblm nie ada benda yg blur…skrang nie dh nampak sikit..maklumla kat otak dah ada neuron yg terbentuk…lps 2 bln baru come out result nye iaitu understanding..iye la tuh..byk oo bende kena buat…nak kena validate my proposed technique nie..harap2 ok..tapi kalau tak ok pun..bak kata supervisor lagik..at least research saya nie menunjukkan teknik tak boleh guna tuk bidang nie (aluminium). Satu penemuan jugak tuh..he..he…he…
Thn dpn rancang nak balik..bukan apa..nak gi mengurut.nak sengkak..skrang nie pun rasa belum100% cergas..Moga2 ada la duit lebih sikit..ye la ..kos bersalin dah 3 ribu lebih…NZD tuh…..nie skrang desperate nak carik conference kat Malaysia…at least tambang saya KPT cover…emm passport Nadhirah harap2 tak lama sgt nak siap..
Minggu nie ingat nak gi Wellington:High comm. Msia..sbb akhir Nov ada appoint ment nak cucuk BCG utk Nadihrah, Kena cucuk sblm 12 weeks..kalau tak lagi sakit dia…mid wife la yg beritahu ni…hanya 19/11 jek yg paling terdkat yg kosong utk cucuk BCG kat klinik tuh…nak tak nak kena gi gak minggu nie
Emm..Ikram dah gi nusery..so masa kat opis pun byk sikit la drpd dulu…..kalau dulu dpt pc yg rasa2 nyer paling tak power..tapi skrang nie…dpt pc yg no 4 power kat centre tuh (manager tu la yg kabo)…tempat yg baru pun ada divider..kira privacy sikitla..okayla tuh..better drpd sblm bersalin dulu…..ye la..sbbnyer dulu centre tuh ingat research saya nie nothing to contribute to the centre..tapi bila director kata aku mungkin masuk dlm projek diorang, barula dia bagi pc gan tempat duduk sedap sikit.,,iyela..sbbnyer.. tempat tuh rupa2nyer diorang sewa dprd UoA….center kena carik untung sendiri….duit sendiri,
Okayla..anak pun dh nangis…report pun tak siap lagik..nak sidai kain sikit…
Akhir kata..Cai yo…cai yo…….semangat ..semangat….:)

The figure below shows a schematic view of a cell. A cell that is used for producing aluminium (the blue one in the figure). The concept is like elektrolysis..anode and cathode..mcm kita belajar chemistry dulu..disebabkan chemistry nie my favourite subject..dulu nyaris2 amik farmasi..jadik kira okayla kaji benda cell nie...

First day at Early Childhood Centre

2007-10-29T22:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I sent Ikram to an early childhood centre. When we arrived, Ikram was very happy. He ran straight to the playground. He looked very confident. After 10 minutes, I left Ikram and went to Kate Edgar to print a letter. The letter was for Unit latihan UKM. As now we have 2 children, I asked for an increasing in family allowance. Before I left Ikram, as usual I said to him, “Mama pergi kerja ye. Nanti mama dtg balik”. Ikram seem ok and said “Bye..”

Then, when I was at student commons, printing the letter, Linda from the early childhood center had called me and said that Ikram was crying. From the handphone, I can hear Ikram’s voice “ Nak mak…Nak mak”..So I said to Linda that I will come in 5 minutes.

Em…when I arrived, a staff there was holding Ikram. He was very upset…emm..It reminds me back about the same situation when I sent Ikram to a nursery in Malaysia. In Malaysia, it took me quite a long time to settle him down until one day I decided to be in the nursery for about an hour and more…

All I know that we cannot leave our children just like that. We cannot assume that ‘lama-lama okayla tuh’. We as his parents must comfort him first. Make friends with the staffs. So the child began to understand that this place is safe and theire parent dosent leave him for ever. They will come again to take me home. Some times the child was crying because they think we will leave him there for a long, long time. Try to do what our children is doing at the nusery. Like me, I asked Ikram to eat his sandwich. At fisrt, he refused to eat. Then when I took one and ate, he seems more confident and ate the sandwich with me.

Similarly in Malaysia, when Ikram didn’t want to sleep at the nusery, I put my head down besides his pillow and I could see from his eyes that there was a relief inside him. They were the same eyes that I saw during eating sanwinches at the centre here. Well, let we see whether Ikram is still upset at the centre tomorrow..Hopefully not…please not….please…………………..

-->Some of Ikram's pictures but not at the center...

Ikram with his father
During hari raya, 1 Syawal
Ikram with his sister, Nadhirah...

Ikram..my beloved son.....:)

More about giving birth..All about natural

2007-10-13T17:19:00.000-07:00

So many new things I've learnt from giving birth here, in Auckland.All about natural.

Firstly,when giving birth, I said to the midwifes, " I think I want to push now"..
Then the mid wife said "If u want to push, push.." wow..it's so different during Ikram..During Ikram, the midwife guided me when to push and how to do it. In here, I have to decide when to push and how to do it.

Secondly, after giving birth, I can decide whether to get an injection to get the placenta out or just let the placenta out naturally. In Malaysia, I didnt get any option. Just used the injection to let the placenta out. So, after discussing with my midwife, I choosed to let the placenta out naturally. After Nadhirah was born, the midwife said " when u feel like to push after this, you just push. It will let the placenta out"...Well, it is not as easy as I thought before...It took a long time for me to feel like to push...At one time, I felt like to ask the midwife to just give me the injection to let the placenta out. Because I was so weak at that moment. I lost about 400 ml of blood. The midwife even tried to pull it out, but the placenta was still there...Finally, I felt like to push and placenta was come out..waa..what a relief...

Thirdly, after giving birth, the midwifes put the baby without any clothes on me. They want the baby skin touch my skin. The reason doing that is the mother's body temperature will up to a suitable degree to heat the baby. MasyaAllah...betapa besarnya kurniaan Allah.. The baby will feel warm and comfortable.

Fourthly, after the Nadhirah was born, they just wiped her lightly and put her on me. They didn't wash her with water. Then I know that the liquid that covering the baby when she was in the womb, will heat her after she was born. So, better she take a bath only after 4-6 hours from the delivering time. Just to give her time to get use with her new environment.

Lastly, the midwifes didn't suck (sedut) liquid from the baby. At first, I didn't know about that until I've asked my midwife. It is because when at home, Nadhirah quite often vomiting and 'bersin'. Then I told the midwife that I think Nadhirah got a cold. The midwife said that it was a good sign. It showed that she wanted the liquid out of her body naturally. That has explained why her vomitting contained a lot of "lendir"...to get the liquid out from her.

My midwife, Ann, was checking Nadihrah during her visit.

Well, let all go naturally..........

:)

Hari nie dan semlm...

2007-10-12T19:08:00.000-07:00

Hari nie hari raya..

Ikram's father with bebudak Auckland
Ikram and his mother at Zaidah and Ema's house.

Yesterday, was still Ramadhan..

Yesterday, I tried to make puding roti..

I think this is the fourth time..and mcm tak jadik jek....

I think I would like to give some of the puding to our neighbours (room 210,310) but "seganla" because the taste and the look of the puding is not like what I've been expected.

em..tak jadik lagi..bila la nak jadik.....:(

Then I got sms from ema told tomorrow is 'raya'...

I got sms from Akmal that tomorrow will be an open house at Ema and Zaidah's house...at that time I didn't know whether to go or not, depend on many things.myself,mybaby.I am still in confinement....still thinking

At last, today we have been to their house (see pictures above) and Ikram as usual keep asking about cokelat....."Nak cokelat.....nak cokelat".......

ops...tak call mak lagi.
got to go....

Today is Hari Raya

2007-10-12T16:18:00.000-07:00

Hari raya.....
Tlg mak masak samapi 1-2 pagi..
Masak apa ek..
Masak ayam masak merah atau rendang, kuah kacang, sayur lodeh, nasi himpit, rendang daging: masak 1-2 hari awal...
Masak kuantiti yg byk sbb nak bagi jiran dan sedara mara.
Pastu bila jiran gan sedara mara bagi pulak, fuh penuh satu meja oooo....
Ayam ada 2-3 jenis masakan:kicap, rendang,masak merah, sayur lodeh 2-3 versi: cair, pekat, sedap..,rendang:kering, basah, ketupat, nasi himpit, ketupat pulut...fuh..
Makan 2-3 round...

emmm..baru nak layan mood raya...
sambung lagi nanti sbb nak layan anak pulak..
:)
Maaf zahir batin

Ikram's birthday

2007-10-09T13:04:00.000-07:00

10/10/2004, today is Ikram's birthday....Happy birthday to you....

Now he is three years old..Now he is a brother..

I've started to think about him...Thinking about his feeling

Sometimes we have to be in his position, try to think like him...

Why does he cry...why does he act like that....

may be he wants to tell me "Mama, I want your attention, but I dont know how to tell you", "Mama, I'm very tired,but I still want to play", "Mama,I'm hungry, but I dont want to eat that", "Mama, I want to past urine, but I dont want to go to the toilet".......

Well, a lot more to learn about how to handle a three years old child...

I've found some pictures from my sister's friendster.

Mengimbau kenangan lalu.....

Ikram at my brother's house, Putrajaya
Ikram with my sister, Faizah
Ikram was playing with 'bantal Incredible'
Ikram was at our house at Tmn Tenaga
Ikram and his mother were at a research's room at UKM (kacau kwn2 yg ada)

Ikram was at his stroller with a green teddy bear (above)

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Raya nak dekat dah...

Mak...............nak balik kg..raya.....:(

Nak makan ketupat, sayur lodeh, rendang mak buat, ayam, biskut gulung......

tapi boleh ke makan time pantang belum habis nie.....

Dulu masa Ikram, seminggu lps 1 Syawal, mak masak lagi lauk raya sbb time tuh baru abis pantang.....Sayang mak................

Mid wife visit

2007-10-08T18:39:00.000-07:00

Today, a new mid wife from Plunket visited us. So things to do are:
1) BCG- before 12 weeks
2) Immunisation-at 6 weeks (have to book first)
3) Ikram's dental form (next 2 week)

Optional things to do:
1) Bring Ikram to general library for story telling times
2)Bring Ikram to nearest Playground

Another things to do related to birth registration:
1) post letter to request for application forms
2) Takes Nadhirah's photo
3) Photostat many things (ic, certificate, passport etc)

Many more.......

Nur Nadhirah Nabihah : Cahaya yg segar berseri, yg cerdik.

2007-09-28T16:37:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah, nine days before Ramadhan Al-mubarak, ikram's sister, Nur Nadhirah Nabihah Binti Mohammed Reza was born (see Picture 1).

Picture 1: Nur Nadhirah Nabihah-about three hours after born

After 15 minutes of pushing (second stage of labour) Nadhirah was born at 1.20 p.m, on the 5th September 2007, at Auckland City Hospital and was delivered by Lyndal McBride, a mid wife at Auckland City Hospital (see Picture 2).

Picture 2: Lyndal McBride, the mid wife (right), Ikram and a trainee (also assist in delivering Nadhirah)

It is such a wonderful experience giving birth at the city of sails, Auckland (see Picture 3).

Picture 3: This view was taken from our apartment at level 16, Unilodge Auckland

Therefore, in this blog, I will write my experience to share all the moments: before (see Picture 4 and 5), while and after giving birth (see Picture 6).

Picture 4: Three hours and 20 minutes before giving birth

Picture 5: One hour and 40 minutes before giving birth.

Picture 6: Three hours after giving birth. Ikram with his father and his new born sister, Nadhirah. Ikram was holding a toy (a hand glove was turn into a ballon and was made by the midwife to entertain Ikram)

More stories?

To be continue ...:)

At the clinic

2007-06-29T14:19:00.000-07:00

emm... After 17 minutes sitting in the bus, we finally arrived at the clinic. It is a big clinic and is surrounded by a beautiful view. Ikram and his father was at the car park infront of the clinic. They were heading to a bus stop to wait for a bus.

On the way to a clinic

2007-06-29T14:06:00.000-07:00

Ikram was very happy while sitting in a bus. This was his first experience. The bus was going to Greenlane Medical Center where Ikram's mother can meet with a midwife for maternity check-up.

Stagecoach bus: 283

Fee: 3.20 NZD

Take a Bath

2007-06-29T13:31:00.000-07:00

Ikram likes taking a bath here...He will be under the shower for a long time because he feel warm.. As the temperature now is quite low, taking a bath with hot water is very comfortable......

Jom masak

2007-06-08T15:41:00.000-07:00

Ikram with his family went to unillodge's kitchen at first floor to cook for lunch. Ikram's mother cooked fish and vegetables. We usually go here for cooking to gain more fun using gas instead of electricity to cook.

Ikam and lolipop

2007-05-26T16:05:00.000-07:00

Ikram was eating lolipop at a park behind a clinic. I was at the clinic for pregnancy check-up and Ikram was so boring at the clinic so that the reptionist gave Ikram a lolipop. After that, his father took Ikram to the park while waiting for me. I didn't have to pay for maternity check on that day because I have more than 2 years student visa. So most probably my maternity care is free. But I have to confirm about it. The cost of maternity care in NZ is quite expensive.

Ikram at the parent's space

2007-05-26T12:52:00.000-07:00

Ikram's father just came from Musolla after performing friday's prayer. While waiting for his father, Ikram and I were at the parent's space. The main purpose to go there is to use internet facility because at that time we didn't have internet connection at home. Also, Ikram can play with available toys there since we just brought only a few of Ikram's toys from Malaysia

Ikram with his father

2007-05-26T12:38:00.001-07:00

Ikram dan ayah berhenti kejap utk ambik gambar ketika perjalanan ke University of Auckland. Daripada Unliodge ke engneering building mengambil masa dlm 7-10 minit. It's good for a pregnant woman like me to walk approximately 20 minutes everyday. It was in the morning and we were going to Kate Edgar Information Center (infront of engineering building) to do a lot of things like banking, finding out about family insurance and going to parent's space where Ikram can play with a variety of toys there.

Ikram depan Unilodge

2007-05-26T11:55:00.000-07:00

Unilodge - di sini la tempat Ikram tinggal di Auckland. Apartment 1 bilik ditingkat 16. Tiap2 hari daripada dlm rumah, ikram akan meninjau bilangan bas dan kereta yg lalu dibawah. Pandangan drpd rumah menarik. Nampak pelabuhan dan byk perahu layar mucul ketika cuaca baik....gambar ini diambil ketika ikram baru pulang drpd Foodtown- membeli keperluan makanan.

Ikram's faces while smiling

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Ikram was at home with his father

Graduation Day

2006-06-30T03:09:00.000-07:00

Mama, Ayah and Ikram (inside my womb) at UKM during my graduation day on the 2/10/2004. Ikram was 39 weeks.

Behind from left: My husband, My father, my brother
Infront from left: Me and My mother

Date:2/10/2004. 8 days before ikram was born, I was at UKM attending my graduation day. Ikram expected to be born around 12 October 2004. While waiting outside Dectar, one of my friends said that she have delivered her baby 2 weeks before due date. I felt quite nervous. What will happen if the time to Ikram to be born has come. I cannot imagine if suddenly I feel contraction or other sign of labour like blood or air ketuban. I know it takes a long period before labour. I have to get through some phases but each woman will have different experience.Then...

--> to be continued :)

Ikram...my beloved son

2006-06-29T02:40:00.000-07:00

His pillows with covers were made by my mother. The pillows are very comfortable with "kekabu" inside. I love u MUM

I really miss this moment. His smile was very ......We were at my parent's house in Pontian, Johor

Ikram was at our house at Taman Tenaga Kajang. The hands is my husband's hand.

I really like this picture. I dont know why.....

Beside Ikram was "Froggie". It was given by my husband's sister. The frog was really nice. Thanks Farisha..

Ikram was born on the 10th October 2004-->10.10.2004
Now he is 20 months old.
When he sees cat or bird he will said "eoooow..."
When he sees car he will said " oo oooo ooo"
When he sees water he will said "Ayer"
and many more.....
-->I hope he will start talking soon....:)

Ikram's pictures

2006-06-27T02:52:00.000-07:00

ikram now is 20 months old...

My Experience During Pregnancy

2006-06-27T02:09:00.000-07:00

When I was a full time housewife, I was very excited to send anything to magazines or newspapers as long as I will get a prize. Then, one day a reporter from Pa and Ma had called me and ask for futher details about an article which I have sent to them.

The original article that I wrote was:

Anakku Dah Ada Master

Aku menikah dengan suamiku pada 21.12.2003 dan disahkan hamil 3 minggu selepas itu. Nasib baik aku tidak mengalami alahan yang teruk. Kalau tidak tentunya sukar kerana aku masih bergelar pelajar ketika itu. Apabila kandunganku masuk 31 minggu, aku mengalami sedikit pendarahan. Aku mula panik dan menangis. Takut perkara buruk berlaku kepada kandunganku. Suamiku membawaku ke klinik. Doktor mengesahkan aku mengalami placenta praevia (uri bawah) dan aku dimasukkan ke wad bagi pemeriksaan lanjut. Sedihnya hati hanya tuhan saja yang tahu. Aku tidak pernah duduk di wad sebelum ini.

Esoknya aku diperiksa oleh doktor pakar bagi mengetahui kedudukan sebenar uriku. Aku diberitahu ianya adalah placenta praevia type II anterior. Aku mungkin boleh melahirkan anakku secara normal tapi jika berisiko tinggi aku mungkin bersalin melalui proses pembedahan caesarean. Namun yang paling menyedihkan aku terpaksa duduk di wad tersebut sehingga bersalin kerana jika berlaku pendarahan, langkah kecemasan boleh segera diambil bagi menyelamatkan kandunganku.

Tinggal di wad sebenarnya menjadikan aku semakin tabah, semakin maju dan semakin sihat. Ini kerana aku perlu tabah menghadapi suasana panas di wad, serangan nyamuk pada waktu malam dan berjauhan dengan suami. Untuk menguatkan rohani aku membaca Al-Quran setiap kali selepas solat, membaca yassin dan solat hajat. Alhamdulillah aku berjaya khatam Al-Quran sehari sebelum bersalin.

Aku sememangnya agak lemah dalam bahasa Inggeris. Tinggal di wad menjadikan aku semakin maju dalam bahasa ini. Ini adalah kerana sepanjang duduk di wad aku telah menghabiskan 5 novel karangan Sydney Shieldon, membaca suratkhabar bahasa Inggeris setiap hari, mencari perkataan yang tidak ku fahami daripada kamus dan menghabiskan latihan bagi kursus bahasa Inggeris yang kuambil sebelum ini. Ramai pesakit dan juru rawat pelik melihatku dan mereka meneka aku masih belajar lagi. Sebenarnya aku telah menyiapkan kajianku (tesis) dan hanya menunggu dianugerahkan ijazah pada majlis konvokesyen. Aku mula mengira-gira sama ada aku sempat atau tidak untuk menghadiri majlis konvokesyenku pada 2.10.2004. Aku dijangka bersalin pada 12.10.2004 dan jika uriku masih dibawah, mungkin aku akan dibedah dan bersalin sebelum due date yang sebenar. Aku hanya mampu berdoa supaya uriku naik hingga jenis yang pertama di mana aku dibolehkan keluar wad, menghadiri majlis konvokesyen dan bersalin normal.

Aku juga semakin sihat duduk di wad kerana pihak hospital menyediakan diet makanan yang baik. Di tambah pula dengan buah-buahan, air soya dan biskut yang dibawa keluarga dan rakan yang melawat.. Setiap kali selepas solat, badanku berjujuran peluh kerana ruang solat yang disediakan di dalam wad agak panas, tapi aku anggap ia seperti sauna. Keluar peluh bagi menyihatkan badan. Jika ada peluang aku akan mencari ruang solat lebih selesa iaitu surau di luar wad. Seronok ketika berjalan ke surau tersebut, kerana aku dapat singgah membeli jambu dan dadih yang dijual dikawasan hospital. Aku anggap berjalan sebagai senaman bagi mengawal berat badanku

Namun apa yang paling berharga ialah aku mendapat pelbagai petua dan pengalaman bagi menghadapi saat sebelum, semasa dan selepas bersalin. Aku telah mendengar hampir 5 kali ceramah penyusuan ibu di wad. Seorang ibu yang melawat anaknya di wad memesan supaya membaca surah al-anbiyak ayat 87 supaya senang bersalin. Aku turut mempratikkan penafasan ketika kontraksi setiap kali melihat pesakit di sebelah katil mengalami kontraksi
Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana dengan izinNya uriku naik ke tahap pertama pada minggu ke 36 kehamilan. Terima kasih yang tidak terhingga kepada ibuku yang banyak membantu dengan ikthiar dan doanya. Begitu juga kepada suami tercinta di atas kasih sayangnya yang luhur. Aku sempat menghadiri majlis konvokesyen dengan perut memboyot. Rakanku berkata “Anak kau untung betul la, belum lahir lagi dah dapat master”. Bila anakku dan besar nanti, aku akan tunjukkan gambar konvokesyen dan beritahu yang dia ada bersamaku ketika aku di atas pentas.

Aku pulang ke kampung iaitu di Johor untuk bersalin di sana. Pada hari yang sepatutnya suamiku pulang ke KL untuk bekerja, aku mula terasa sakit sebelum Subuh. Darah pekat sudah mula keluar sedikit. Ibuku mula panik dan menyuruhku cepat bersiap. Namun aku relak sahaja kerana tidak mahu pergi awal ke hospital. Ibuku tetap bergegas supaya aku cepat. Suamiku tidak jadi balik dan menghantarku ke hospital. Sepanjang perjalanan aku mengalami kontraksi yang semakin kuat. 2 kontraksi dalam masa 5 minit. Aku takut kalau terbersalin di dalam kereta.

Ketika sampai di hospital pada 10.30 pagi, bukaanku sudah 8 cm. Aku terus disorong ke bilik bersalin. Manakala keluargaku pergi ke kafe untuk bersarapan. Di bilik bersalin aku mula mengatur pernafasan agar kesakitan ini dapat aku harungi dengan baik. Aku tidak lepas membaca surah al-anbiyak ayat 87. Tepat jam 11.08 pagi 10.10.2004 dengan 3 kali teran, lahirlah anakku Muhammad Ikram bin Mohammed Reza seberat 3.21 kg. Namun aku mengalami pendarahan yang banyak dan terpaksa duduk di bilik bersalin agak lama. Pada 12.30 tengahari suamiku meminta juru rawat menghantar air selusuh kepadaku. Juru rawat memberitahu suamiku yang aku telah selamat bersalin. Ibu, ayah dan suamiku sangat terkejut kerana pada sangkaan mereka aku pastinya belum bersalin. Maklumlah anak sulung. Pada pukul 2.00 petang aku dijahit lagi kerana darah masih keluar dengan banyak. Pada ketika itu rasa sakit amat dirasai kerana kesan bius sudah mulai hilang. Aku siap memegang tangan juru rawat bagi menahan sakit. Setelah keadaanku stabil, aku akhirnya disorong keluar dari bilik bersalin.Setelah melahirkan anak, aku tidak berniat mencari kerja buat masa terdekat ini. Aku berhasrat membesarkan anakku sendiri Aku juga memberikan Ikram susu badan secara ekslusif. Terima kasih kepada ceramah penyususan ibu ketika di wad Semoga Ikram menjadi anak yang soleh, berakhlak mulia, cerdik dan cerdas. Amin

--> this was an original article, but in Febuary Edition of PA & Ma they have cut half of the story. (I got rm 100 for this story). May be this story must be too long for the available space.

The reporter that have come to see me actually want to know my experience during convo. But at that time, i didnt know what to say so that my full story for about 2 pages in that magazine didn't come out. But now I've got an idea how to express my feeling during that time. I will write it soon in this blog with my convo's picture.

--> I'm not a full time housewife anymore. I'm working now. I hope I will get a PhD child after this. :)

ikram

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ikram

gambar

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Raya..

A city I have visited

2005-12-19T21:48:00.000-08:00

There a lot of advatages of living in a big city. First of all, all the services u need are situated there. U can go to Bank, Museum, the hospital which is the centre for medical expertise, insuranse and many more. The biggest shoopinng mall is also situated there where u can find almost everything there. However, u can never deny negative aspect of crowded cities. Teenagers tends to loaf because lack of comfortable house in the city. An average family could only afford to rent a small flat. This situation make many teenagers go outside their house and be with their friends. The bad things happened when they tried to do something challenging like illegal motor race and going to pub. In big city, u can see some beautiful building

Ikram's mother

2005-12-19T21:22:00.000-08:00

my name is "ikram' s mother". I live at tmn rama-rama. I live with my husdband, my son and my brother. I am studyinng english because i have to take IELTS test soon. I like my studies because it make me more confidence to meet other people. Because at the moment u can see a lot of information from internet and tv are in english. By learning this language, I can grab those info and make myself a knowlegable woman. I use english everyday since 3 months ago because I desperately have to pass the test. A city that i have visited is JB. It is situated south of penisular malaysia and near to singapore.It is the capital city of Johor. I visited JB because it is the place where i delevered my baby. Hospital Sultanah Aminah is the name of the hospital that carried a sweet memory for me. It is situated side of the city and infront laut cina selatan. U can see Singapore from there. From the high floor at the hospital, I hug my baby who was getting cold by wind from laut cina selatan. It was a memorable moment because i hadn't sleep all night because my baby didnt want to sleep. My baby name is Muhammad Ikram. I love u.

Ikram

2005-12-19T20:26:00.000-08:00

Ikram is sleeping at the moment. I used a car seat as his bed. I bring him to my office today because he is not feeling well. He has have cold since last week. I always put him at the nusery when I go to work. But sometimes if I see his sleepy face, I felt very pity to let him to nusery. As u know, toddlers are very active. They like exploring and eating anything that they see and touch. At the nusery, some of his friends are quite "fierce". They enjoy pulling, bitting and shouting to each other and even to their babysitter. One day, a babysitter was almost cried when a chubby toddler bite her.They find those things very amusing. However, after I have sent my son there, his character has changed. He can easily hug other pepole and ask them to take him. He enjoy playing with other toddler and seem very happy. But to make him to be like that, a toddler who has confidence to do something on his own, you must make a very strong bond with him. When this bond is created tightly, he will feel more secure and he will always know that there is someone behind him, protect him with love and care. I used to be a fulltime housewife before this. When he was almost reach one year, I started to work. I do like this to make sure that he really get all my attention and love. You can see the difference between a toddler who his mother is a fulltime housewife and a toodler who his mother is a busy career woman. But if u can't be a fulltime housewife, make sure that u give enough love and support to him. For instance, although I'm a career woman at the moment, I always go to the nusery during lunch time to feed him, play with him and hug him. I don't want he waits for a long period to see me.